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  • Gregory T. Wilkins

Australia & New Zealand (2015/6)

November 12, 2015 I have been planning for my university sabbatical for over 3 years. That is a lot of time thinking and rethinking what kind of experiences I want to gain and opportunities I can share with others while volunteering and exploring. Working and reworking my itinerary is like a jigsaw puzzle to see how it all fits into a larger context. Some call me crazy for putting so much energy into the process, but I would rather get a feel for the total experience than fly on the seat of my pants. After all, sabbaticals don't come around every day. There is so much to do--reading online posts, researching, letter writing, re-tweaking, networking, etc. For me it's going from macro to micro so that I can make the most of my time away. Minutes matter and moments count, and I want to make every moment count in my adventure. Two years ago I went to Australia as part of annual leave (some think annual leave as a vacation, I tend to complete global service--see and do). The journey became part of my networking as I reached out to communities that I would want to volunteer with and organizations and universities I would want to explore more. It was time well spent as it aided me in my upcoming trip. My time away informed me of directions I would want to return and from other experiences I would veer away. The take away from it all was Australia and Australians are an awesome bunch and returning would be amazing! The greatest hardship was all the planning I had put into the process was dashed when my university president would not honor my request to take a year away. (I don't know all the politics that were involved, but the headache it amassed was intense.) My hard work and planning was tossed aside as if it did not have merit. Mind you, in my initial proposal I had documented where I would be every month and the work I would be doing--university site visits, collaborations, global service, etc. I had written a 6 page single-space document with supporting evidence that outlined my upcoming experiences. To make matters more complicated, the proposed timeline that was advertised was not honored and left me waiting on baited breathe. When I finally got a response, I was provided no reasons why it was denied, but I was asked rather to revise it...and revise it I did. I sent draft after draft for approval and nothing--not even written comments. I was baffled. Faculty were in disbelief as I shared my story, and I was left twiddling my thumbs not knowing if all the time and effort would come to fruition. My sabbatical request was feeling more and more like a dissertation (minus the volume and chapters) with all the politics that were being played. It was definitely unsettling, and I understood why so few in my position have applied in the past. I was asked by the president to get a support letter from the Dean of Global Education, and when he saw what I put together he was delighted. I was told that not even full time faculty do what I did. The dean was delighted to write a letter of support, and I resubmitted my proposal. I wrote yet another draft (this was now my forth or fifth--lost count with the bureaucracy). I removed my research writing I was going to do for an international publication, took out the final draft of the screenplay I was writing, and scaled down my sabbatical from one year to four months. It sat on the presidents desk with no remarks. And drum roll please.....it was finally approved. YEAH! I must admit that I was delighted; however, trying to scale down a year to four months is disappointing. There was so much I had planned to accomplish. And while I know I will grow in my time away, thinking about how much more I could develop if provided a full year makes me a bit sad. Rather than dwell on it and become bitter, I focused my time to become better. (It's all about changing the vowel--bitter to better.) I will focus my time in Australia, New Zealand, Singapore, Malaysia, Borneo and a teaching fellowship in Bangladesh--13 universities in 16 weeks with a month teaching in Bangladesh.

Sabbatical Leave My role in the Centennial Student Union and Student Activities at Minnesota State Mankato works in several areas: Greek Life, Recognized Student Organizations, Leadership, Leadership programming, Community Engagement focusing on service learning, Off-campus Housing, and campus programming. The purpose of my sabbatical is for a semester of connections, study, reflection, and volunteerism with emphasis on my work responsibilities. I will visit colleges and universities in the Southern Hemisphere to gain a better understanding of the populations they serve, co-curricular programs they offer, identify potential international partners, traditions they celebrate, and benchmarks that I may bring back to Minnesota State Mankato. In addition, I plan to meet with numerous international Universities, possibly connect with MSU, Mankato alumni, and attend international art and music festivals volunteering at world-class performances. I will also assist nongovernmental organizations and nonprofits on issues such as: environmental sustainability, poverty, HIV/AIDS, gay and lesbian civil rights, as well as food insecurity and homelessness, etc. I will work collaboratively with university faculty, staff and students. And lastly, I plan to visit and experience UNESCO sites. Benefits to Minnesota State Mankato Working with the Kearney International Center and visiting our international, sister universities and at least one of our third party providers (International Study Abroad), bring site information back to Mankato while connecting with our global partners. My proposal echoes Minnesota State Mankato's Global Education Advisory Council's strategic plan which I helped shape a few years ago. (I have been on the committee for the last 5 years and part of it when it was called the International Programs Advisory Council. I was also a recipient of the Minnesota State Mankato 2014 Global Citizen Award.) Universities that I will be visiting are nationally accredited, recognized by UNESCO, appear in the World Higher Education Database, and are comprehensive. Working with the Mankato Alumni Office and Kearney International Center, reach out to international alumni, and showcase the success of Minnesota State Mankato. Mankato's Global Education Interim Dean Stoynoff believes this is important as it has not been an activity that the university has done in the past well. Dr. Stoynoff held the first such event in Nepal a few years ago. I personally and financially sponsored a similar event two years ago during my annual leave in Australia. This has great potential for relationship building with alumni, advancement potential for the MSU Foundation, as well as promoting university enrollment. Provide insight and best practices in the student activity and student union field with the information I gather and share my findings with my colleagues at Minnesota State Mankato. Provide insight and best practices in festival programming and with the information I gather share my findings with my colleagues at Minnesota State Mankato. Provide insight and best practices in grassroots organizing and volunteerism and with the information I gather share my findings with my colleagues at Minnesota State Mankato. I have served on the Mankato International Festival for the last 7 years. By visiting other countries and UNESCO sites, help international student showcase their nations and to be able to empathize with students as they transition to Mankato which may assist in Mankato's retention efforts. As a presenter at the Mankato Annual Fund the last 6 years, return and speak to current Mankato students about the importance of giving and showcase our international alumni. See below the monthly proposed itinerary:

December 11-13               flight to AUS via MSP/LAX/China/SYD

December 13                    arrive to AUS and take flight to Nimbin, AUS

December 13 - 27            Faeryland--summer solstice, present an educational session on multiculturalism, help with sustainability projects and reforestation (This is the same organization that I awarded a $750 gift from the Asssociation of College Unions International as I was the recipient of the ACUI 100th Anniversary Volunteer of the Year.)

December 27 - Jan. 2      Tropical Fruits New Years Extravaganza volunteer; Northern Rivers Performing Arts Center • January 2 to January 4 2 nights--Byron Bay with Carl Taylor –member of the Radical Faery community and volunteer with Byron Bay theatre and art collective     Visit Southern Cross University • January 4 to January 10 Townsville, AUS 1 week--Dr. Luke Paul     Visit James Cook University • January 10 to January 15 Brisbane, AUS    Queensland University of Technology Visit University of Queensland student union, Queensland University of Technology (QUT) as well as educational program areas at the Queensland Museum and museums at University of Queensland. I have spoken with Mankato’s Global Education Interim Dean Stoynoff with regards to our existing relationship with QUT. Our relationship is with the College of Education and teacher placement. I will visit them as well as explore possible collaboration with nursing. • January 15 to January 25 Christchurch, AUS World Buskers Festival-- http://www.worldbuskersfestival.com/ • January 25 to January 30 Dunedin, AUS University of Otago http://www.otago.ac.nz/ • January 30 to February 4 Queenstown, NZ Visit Southern Institute of Technology  https://www.sit.ac.nz/ • February 4 - 11 Wellington, NZ Victoria University of Wellington; Wellington Botanical Gardens; Catherine Mansfield Estate; NZ Film Archive, Dowse Art Museum; Museum of Wellington; City Gallery; Academy Galleries; NZ Portrait Gallery; Parliament House Tour; City Sculpture Walk http://www.victoria.ac.nz/ • February 11-16 Rotorua, NZ Visit Maori communities-- Whakarewarewa Village & Ohinemutu  http://www.whakarewarewa.com/ http://www.newzealand.com/us/feature/ohinemutu/  • February 16 - 26 Auckland, NZ University of Auckland; Massey University; Auckland University of Technology; Auckland Gay Pride https://www.auckland.ac.nz/en.html http://www.massey.ac.nz/massey/home.cfm http://www.aut.ac.nz/  • February 26 to March 2 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia Unviersity of Malaya https://www.um.edu.my/ • March 2 -7 Melakka, Malaysia UNESCO City http://whc.unesco.org/en/list/1223  • March 7 - 14 Singapore National University of Singapore; Visit and volunteer at National University of Singapore; National Museum of Singapore, Singapore Art Museum, Gardens by the Bay's 18 "Supertrees”, Botanical Gardens, art collection at the Ritz Carlton Hotel in Singapore, and Chinatown Heritage Center; Celebrate Vesak Day (mid-May) “Buddha Day” http://www.nus.edu.sg/  • March 14 - 16 Kuala Lumpur See Petronas Towers; visit Islamic Art Museum; National Mosque; Thean Hou Temple; Sri Maha Mariamman Temple; Guan Di Temple; Kortumalai Sri Ganesar Temple; Dayabumi Complex; Guan Yin Temple. Kun Yam Thong Temple • March 16 - 19 Kuching, Malaysia Cultural show at National Parks & Wildlife; Sarawak Museum & Tribal Art; Islamic Museum of Art; Chinese History Museum; Orchid Garden; Sarakraf Building/Handicraft Center • March 19 - 22 Miri, Malaysia Tua Pek Kong Temple, volunteer with beach restoration project • March 22 - 27 Mulu, Malaysia UNESCO Park visit and volunteer -- http://mulupark.com/ • March 27 t0 April 1 Kuala Lumpur Sultan Abdul Samad Building; volunteer at Perdana Botanical Garden; Malayan Railways Limited building; Sza Ya Temple; Church of the Holy Rosary; Ton Hussein Onn Memorial • April 1 - 27 Dhaka, Bangaladesh Teach at Internaitonal University of Business Agriculture and Technology; Bangla New Years, April 15; Visit UNESCO sites: Historic Mosque City of Bagerhat, Ruins of the Buddhist Vihara at Paharpur, The Sundarbans https://www.iubat.edu/ • May Return to USA Mankato, Minnesota, USA


Friday 13th - November 2015


The world stopped for a moment with terror on the TV and lives were cast across social media. ISIS bombed Paris, Lebanon and Kenya killing hundreds and leaving the world asking more questions and survivors begging for answers. Looking out for angels and trying to find peace in the midst of chaos leaves hearts aching and tears streaming--who will be next?--hopefully not I.


I wish I could learn how to hold the joyless, as goodbyes to lives lost with strangers in the distance are left as shadows, but feeling more and more like family, scattered amongst humanity. The look in their eyes wanting more, and not wanting to go, and yet there are things I don't want to learn--injustice, fear, hate. And so we say goodbye to lives lost but unified to end terror. Stripped but not naked to truth. When will this end? I do not see the light at the end of this tunnel.


Fear will not stop me from seeing the world. The haunting images will never leave me; they will not let me go. There are still things I have yet to learn, but the one thing I have is my humanity. I will not let it be stripped away. Because there is no joy in the sadness-- only more questions, cold inside and wishing for one more time. A time to be strong and fearless. A time to rise-up and say no more. A time to be bold and cast my embrace to those filled with sorrow. As the ol' hymn is sung, "Let there be peace on Earth and let it begin with me".


November 16, 2015 Too often I hear people talking "woulda coulda shoulda" which leaves them shoulda-ing all over themselves. I never have been one to want to be "shoulda out of luck". I live my life as the protagonist while shaping my destiny. What I tell my students is, "Can't lives on won't street; if you say the can't you live the won't". While life happens and "shoulda happens", I prefer to have life intercede than have my own language leave me disabled. It becomes a conscious choice.


In Jim Collins’ book Good to Great, the opening sentence of his first chapter states, “Good is the enemy of great.” In education (and life in general) we are in the business of doing good work, but how often to do we push ourselves to do great work? After all, a “C” meets standard; it may not be perfect, but we are at least in the running. Good work does not get us fired, but what if we were in the business of doing great work, exceeding expectations, setting the standard for excellence, being a catalyst for change, moving beyond the ordinary and being extraordinary in all that we do? Living a life of superlatives, versus the ho-hum, would be the carrot at the end of the stick--woulda coulda shoulda falls to the sidelines. I for one prefer to never live a life of ordinary. It is mundane. I prefer to live a life exhalted--moving ordinary to extraordinary. I become my own hero and shero...rising to servant leadership.

Robert K. Greenleaf in his 1970 essay, The Servant as Leader, in which he coined the term “servant-leader”, describes a leader as servant first. The process begins with the natural feeling that one wants to serve. Conscious choice brings one to aspire to lead. This simple task is extraordinary in itself when often times Western culture sets the one before the many.


John Dewey (1938) and Robert Coles (1990), assert that one learns as well or better by doing. It is the act of involvement and reflection that change occurs. (I know in my own development that the act of doing informs learning and sears into my head knowledge and skillsets.) Education is not only a function of books and a formal classroom, but purposeful experiences. I believe that as educators and life-long learners, it is our responsibility to model behavior to affect change on a global scale. Through engagement we are able to collectively improve our local and global communities, and it is this core value that I live my life as example. Service for some is part of life’s routine. It is woven into the fiber of family and community. Some begin service at an early age at primary or secondary school, with a faith-based group or local non-profit. Service was an integral part of my development and became a priority when I went away to college. As an undergraduate, I attended Warren Wilson College in North Carolina. Warren Wilson is one of the only colleges or universities in the United States that requires all undergraduates to complete a minimum of 100 local or global service hours before graduation and at least 25 hours of which has been earned through an extended project related to a single issue area. Service is fundamental to the development of the whole student--academics, work, and service. As part of my service focus over twenty-five years ago, I created a personal vision statement that would help direct my life. My statement reflects core values and honors the person I strive to be. It is a compass that helps charter my decisions and informs choices and actions. The idea of a vision statement is to create a broad based idea about how you want to be engaged in your life; you are the protagonist. This focus becomes your life vision. From this personal vision, you develop a more centered and action orientated mission statement based on purpose. And lastly you get to a list of goals, dreams, and desires of how you want to be involved as a participant. A personal vision statement becomes your center and reflects on what your life will look like. This becomes a guiding set of principles and objectives. My personal statement is, "Creating a life of change impacting the lives of the one or the many". In Greenleaf's second major essay, The Institution as Servant (1972), he articulated what is often called the credo. There he said, "This is my thesis: caring for persons, the more able and the less able serving each other, is the rock upon which a good society is built. Whereas, until recently, caring was largely person to person, now most of it is mediated through institutions often large, complex, powerful, impersonal; not always competent; sometimes corrupt. If a better society is to be built, one that is more just and more loving, one that provides greater creative opportunity for its people, then the most open course is to raise both the capacity to serve and the very performance as servant of existing major institutions by new regenerative forces operating within them." Raising the capacity to serve in less complex and impersonal ways is a value that is dearly held. Often times the idea of shaping opportunities can be overpowering and moves people to make an easy decision versus a better choice. An analogy might be thinking of service as a fast food remedy. You are driving a car, you tell yourself you are hungry when you see a fast food chain restaurant and quickly enter the drive-thru to get your fix. The cost appears to be a good value and it fills your stomach, but in the end you feel bloated and probably did not make a wise decision. You tell yourself, I should have made a better choice. Service for some is completed in the same manner. Colleagues may see a quick and easy way to make themselves feel good by volunteering but in the end leave the experience unfilled and questioning if their act of kindness had any affect. By being more intentional, volunteerism can fulfill goals and exceed expectations. By being clear in your direction and purpose, the results can be life changing. Volunteerism, either locally or globally, the same can be said as true. Friends often ask how to plan for international service. It is easier than one might imagine but does take time and planning. The two obstacles that colleagues often share as to why they don't travel abroad are 1) that they don't have enough time or 2) they don't have enough money. We all have 525,600 minutes in a year and no one ever has enough money. The real question is what do you value and how do you chose to spend your time and money? If your vision reflects the priorities you state are important, than time and money will be found and will become congruent to your ideals. In the end it is about priorities and personal values. Learning by doing can be revolutionary and sets you in directions never imagined. It is empowering beyond measure. It does not rest on the woulda coulda shoulda mantra. Exploring new people, places, and cultures is invigorating and places you as the master of your destiny. Helping others by helping yourself visualize your core values and putting them into a personal statement will shape your future. The Chinese proverb "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step” begins with you.


November 17, 2015


One voice, one spirit that makes a choice to do things differently. A voice of reason some would say, while others shake their weary, bowed down heads and silently mouth the letters N - O. It is that other voice that is feared because it speaks truth. A different voice, while refreshing, casts shadows on issues that so many would prefer to keep quiet, hushed, and silenced. This voice cannot be silenced. This voice refuses to see the mouthing of N - O. What is scary about voice? Maybe, it is having to reconcile the injustice around us. It puts us on a pedestal, behind the podium, to either project and be heard across the void or standing naked before a crowd, awe struck with theatrical lights beaming in our face as feet remain planted, stuck, and unable to move...stage fright. Voice is lifted and echoes--as listening ears and talking fingers express, confess, and rise up. Silent words remain unspoken, swallowed up in the pit of stomach and lodged in sore throats, finding the heartless consumed more by hate than ending injustice. A hand up is not a hand out. Rather it builds a nation, a people, and a community that find resolve in finding their voice.

Sometimes singing solo is exhausting when all I want is a chorus to swell beneath me and lift me up when my spirit is down. A melody that keeps toes tapping, fingers snapping, and humming into the night. Not all songs are marches to move us forward. Some leave tears in the corners of eyes and others bring memories of times long past. And when voiceless words escape me, I lull myself in quiet solitude momentarily in retreat.

Somewhere a mother sings her child to sleep. Somewhere birds greet the morning. Somewhere angel's voices whisper in ears leading us home. Where is your somewhere? Where is your voice? The prairie wind sings to me, carrying me forward to places unknown. If I could only trade it all, the pain and sorrow, for a song. And the sweetness of it falls from my lips and breathes life into a new day. Yes, the joys of voice.

Comrades are sorry for the silencing that they cause, but apologies mean nothing if behavior persists. Another day unfolds as arms are open to embrace and words swell within me ready for outburst. This is my voice, REJOICE! The Wailin' Jennys

This is the sound of one voice One spirit, one voice The sound of one who makes a choice This is the sound of one voice This is the sound of voices two The sound of me singing with you Helping each other to make it through This is the sound of voices two This is the sound of voices three Singing together in harmony Surrendering to the mystery This is the sound of voices three This is the sound of all of us Singing with love and the will to trust Leave the rest behind it will turn to dust This is the sound of all of us This is the sound of one voice One people, one voice A song for every one of us This is the sound of one voice This is the sound of one voice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bc6HloRYZGc&index=3&list=PL03121FCACC9E86FB


November 18, 2015 What is truth? Does it come from a life well lived with experience tucked between the sheets? Is it embodied in the difference you make in the world? Only you can make me see how far my guard can come down. Don't mind me asking difficult questions. Get your hands wet in making a difference. Challenge your conversations where hopes and fears are brutally bare. It is there in deeper dialogue where truth lies not afraid of clenched fists dripping in ugly but rather arms left embracing the one you would never want to call neighbor. It is there where truth lies. It's in the darkness where souls bleed and hinges on intrepidation leaving minds racing beyond color of skin, nationality, religion and orientation.


Truth. It scares so many. I know it is somewhere out there--possibly here, maybe far away. I am not immune as I too need a shot of reality. "Wake up," I scream as I jerk into consciousness and climb out from under the rock of ignorance. There are family members who think I am crazy, but they are all that I have. I sit by myself talking to angels trying to get resolve with the hopes that it will bring us closer. At times it's like talking to the wind. but I don't mind (because I love you). And there are other moments I chose to remain silent; my voice doesn't have the words because my mind is trampled in frustration. They don't know what I know. They have not seen the Buddha with palm faced outward, resilient in saffron robes and radiating third eye.

Do you hear me calling? Phones are left unanswered with me left talking to myself. Still trying to get to you with the hopes that by the time we get to the other side you will find that the earth is round and not flat afterall--don't believe the hype. I know you are there somewhere, but yet so far away. Follow me to the other side; catch me as I fly to the moon chasing dragons and good intentions. As the opening piano score sounds, keys and notes have been there many times before--chords of discord..hurt, but only bruised, as egos keep searching for destiny. Harmony brings us closer to falling between the lines of truth and understanding. I call it melody. I am me. I have not lost myself. Look beyond the mirror, catch a glimpse of God's reflection. I am here to catch you despite the past of self-loathing and unsettled, unspoken words...apologies, misgivings. Reeling like a whirling Dervish. Falling into oblivion. Raise your arms and stare into the heavens. Follow me on my journey on unacquired love; it's the journey that makes the difference--the road less traveled. Catch my hands as they clasp at particles of possibilities. Slip them on your fingers and be wed in the unknowing. Risk has only but reward. And what remains is truth. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xqb18bqNtEw


November 19, 2015 The clock ticks. The second hand chases my to do list around the dial. So much to do in the days to come--tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. I don't have time to sit and wait as the list grows, and I check it twice & thrice--packing and repacking, bills, credit card statements, bank information, passport, visas, backpack, underwear, toiletries. Single file lines add up. How much will my backpack weigh so I don't go over the allotted amount and have to pay an extra fee? (Passengers with economy class tickets are entitled to a baggage allowance for two pieces of baggage, each of which is less than 23KG, 50 pounds. In addition, the total length of three sides is less than 158CM, 62 inches). What is essential? What can stay at home and greet me upon my return to the USA? How much can I squeeze into an already tight space? Questions and more questions. Simple ideas: Wear all black because its easier to wash and doesn't show dirt, easier to manage, shut off the brain and and pull out whatever comes out of the sack--shoes, towel, handkerchief, trousers, shirts, jacket, etc. etc. Is an extra pair of socks really that important? Will it bring me happiness? Will it become a burden? Pants, shorts--how many/how few? Jacket, rain gear, multiple climates from tropical to wind and inclement rainforest afternoons. So much to consider. To top it off I will be taking with me a sleeping bag, liner, sleeping pad and tent. All of this will fit into my backpack. So weight and space is indeed precious. I can always live with less. I always do even after I have packed and repacked over a dozen times. T-s are left unworn. The mantra I keep telling myself is if it's needed and forgotten I can always buy it; the joys of first world problems. It's not the adage of, "It's better to have it and not need it" because I have to haul it on my back across the planet. And so like Santa I make my list and check it twice, scaling back "necessities" and bring things to a lull. Time is fast approaching. My moment will soon arrive.

I love the challenge because I am man who wears and owns many shoes. Let the packing commence!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCF3ywukQYA

November 22, 2015


How will we know when we have gone mad? Will our neighbors tell us or is it more subtle like forgetting names and numbers or where we placed our glasses? Forgetting or forgetfulness is part of being in the mind but when does it go from simplicity to utter chaos?...lost in the head between yesterday's youth and the present.


How does it form?...from lost keys and cell phone that later move to holidays and basic facts. To play ring-a-round-the-rosie as everything falls down around you scares the shit out of me. Madness turns into terror because everything remains suspect and lies as stranger. It is this that I find concerning. It is this that draws us away from adolescence and into oblivion, as kinder folk whisper with cupped hands that he has lost his marbles. And through it all, the mind keeps trying to place the jigsaw puzzle into order.


Names for me have never been my strong suit. I can see their face, their walk and gesture and "know them" but not their name. How insulting it can be, yes? To be with someone, truly with someone, and no name can be  joggled. To stand there, naked, without words of introduction.


It happened to me with my former partner, Nestor Chardon. I would be in deep conversation and want to introduce him but no words could come. His name would be stuck in my mouth, resting on a dry tongue, with lips wanting to form a welcome but nothing emerged but stutters. My mind would race trying to rescue a soft blow to ego...but still nothing--a fool on stage jestering for applause. Can you imagine such behavior? And so I would turn it into a game. His name became a beverage-- Nestea Chardonnay.


My mind becomes muddled, clouded behind comprehension, left wanting more but remaining unresolved. It's like starting a sentence but never ending with a period--running on and on and on leaving the reader to gibberish as eventually words don't even make sense as letters turn to symbols and a mash-up of nothing....walking into darkness and not knowing where the steps end on the staircase. Guessing, always guessing, hoping you don't land on your fanny because of a misstep. Toes are at the end of precipice teetering toward extinction and unknowingly inching forward to demise--so much history behind us with few days forward. It only takes a push to either set the past into recollection or the future overboard. Where does that leave me? A life half-lived seeing the onset of dimentia slowly waltz into the room begging for a dance. I travel to keep madness at bay, the ho-hum of the ordinary beating down my door step. I chase opportunities with the intention of the future not catching up with me--knowing all the while that the effort is futile. It will outpace me, and I will become like so many have before me but yet another memory.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8PZUaV1fQo


November 24, 2015


I miss his kiss, the lingering taste of his lips and his soft caress as he lulls me to sleep. Impressions are left beneath my sheets. I have had enough of sorrow, and yet I miss him so dearly. I am looking out for angels trying to find eternal peace. So if you love me, say you love me, because remaining memories make me cry. To hold you, to touch you, as words of goodbye still echo in my ears. I never felt danger with you there, rather a freedom to lift my wings and fly with feathers gracing the sky touching rays of sunshine. Just let me go; I can't escape you because each time I look away your image is branded--no tattooed--on my flesh, a heart forever broken. Distance may seperate us, but the moon is always watching as we glance into the heavens. There is no escaping us. I thought I was stronger, but there is no much I have yet to learn. And I must admit, that deep down inside I never understood the words...goodbye. So true, so funny how it seems but I am not drunkardly laughing; I sit in quiet doorstoops pondering what might have been. Who cares of town gossip when all we have is love. I want to lose self control, to toss my cares away and not mind what people say. I want to come back again, not afraid to write the next stanza as notes fall off the page and lyrics turn to tears.


Saying farewell in early morning light as polished shoes crunch beneath gravel and keys jostle in blue dungarees, I fumble in the driveway. Car tires wind down the hills of the Palouse. My mind races as my fingers reach out stretched clasping at nothing but memories. Where will that lead us? As roads travel in two directions, this much is true. World adventures keep me engaged, rekindling moments of walks and talks through Seattle to Indonesia. That common bond of experience as we return to our nest and recall times not long past. I search for you in the cracks of pavement. You are there even though not physically present. I capture you in pictures: clinking of martini glasses, dark chocolate piled high, rummaging thrift store finds, whiskers in bathroom basins. Vignettes are so present, so precise and clear, as if I could reach in and ponder you for a while. I shake it off and focus forward. Dearest Bear, I wish you were there to join me as the road unravels. Destinations are made more clear with you beside me. Knowing that is not possible, I pull my rucksack together and venture toward frontiers yet known. I am around the corner; search for me in the rolling hills. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqP0y6o-yeE


November 25, 2015 My former Boy Scout master used to say, "Camping is easy if you make it that way". I would say the same is true for living, kindness, empathy, etc. In this season of thanks giving, it is important to remember that life is easy if we make it that way; instead, we get caught up in hurried moments, trying to outshine the Jones', and forget about how many blessings we have around us. Our cup runneth over and yet so many are dying of thirst. This week I found out a friend went to Mayo Clinic. She had complications with her medication, and blood clots formed around her lungs putting her into shock. Rushing to the hospital, doctors cooled her body down and induced her into a coma  while slowly warming her body back to normalcy over a couple of days. Tests and more tests, cat scan and more blood work, she was bleeding within leaving professionals confused and what might be her prognosis. Today, she went into surgery to remove her ovaries and fallopian tubes. Surrounded by family at her bedside and the wide spread casting of prayers around the globe, we all drew her close- enveloping her in love and light. To be in your prime and to have life sweep you off your feet is life shattering, unexpected and shocking. 30-something years old and your life rests in the balance.


Time passes slowly when waiting to hear news. Time passes slowly when you are lost in a nighmare trying to find a way out and unable to find an escape. Twisted in corners, ailing in the night, and catching your mind racing with what ifs and buts--more questions than answers--I remain waiting with bowed head in prayer. On my office door I have posted - 'Live as if you were to die tomorrow, learn as if you live forever, never let ignorance serve as your master or you will have no peace'. This is how I chose to live. However, as I prepare for my global journey, I forget that life can be snatched away in a blink of an eye. Last week we had terrorists kill innocence in Paris. The same week Lebanon was bombarded by hate filled bomb killings. And closer to home in Minneapolis, racist ignorance shot Black Lives Matter activists. Bullets and bombs before brains -- this is not how I want to celebrate life.


I hope that my words and actions can bring peace in the world, more love of other, compassion before prejudice. I give myself to the Creator and trust that Her majesty will fulfill a destiny that I am unaware. As master of my own life, I have faith that I might bring more gentleness to the world because without love and compassion we are all less fortunate. As tomorrow approaches and Thanksgiving unfolds, may we be drawn to our blessings because life can be easy if we make it that way.


December 11 - 13, 2015


The privilege to travel is immense. So many people in the world will venture no more than 2 hours away from where they live. To have the opportunity to witness different people, cultures, sites, and natural wonders is something that I cherish. Even more powerful is working and living with people in their community and finding a way to give back to something that is greater than I am.

Legacy building is important to me. It's about leaving something of yourself behind that is inspiring and helpful to someone else. This is what it means to be a traveler versus a tourists. Tourists come and go. They take more than they give. Travelers walk more gently on the Earth. While I appreciate the news and getting access to information, the constant barrage of CNN and FOX in my ears at airports and hotel lounges at every twist and turn gives me a headache. I can’t escape it. It is this onslaught to blah, blah, blah, blah, blah on a TV film loop that is deflating, un-empowering, and toxic.  What is even more maddening is the hyper madness of Donald Trump as a presidential candidate; it’s indeed disturbing. As a world traveler, I don’t feel safer knowing that the world has a pulse on Trump’s hate speech as others may look at me wearily because of my national origin. Real or perceived, it makes me more aware of my surroundings b/c he is in the world spotlight—this reality, TV fascist. And then throw in Ted Cruz and Ben Carson trying to politically align in their Machiavellian maneuvering makes my stomach ache as I sit bewildered that average (and below average) Americans sit oblivious to the Republican ideology of separation, division, and xenophobia. Leaving the USA won’t keep me away from the political forecasting. The globe sits and laughs at the United States in this pre-presidential nightmare. I can only hope that truth will ring true in the 2016 elections. What I also find amusing is that the average American has no idea about other world leaders (even the name of our northern or southern neighbor), while the rest of world knows who is teetering in the spotlight from the good ol’ USA. I wish America was more humble and played nicely in the sandbox versus throwing bombs and names at those who we don’t like—Muslims being this week’s scapegoat, tomorrow Black Lives Matter.

********************* I forgot how much I dislike LAX Airport. The place is a jumbled mess. With all that Hollywood money and fame you would expect more from an international hub. But no, the place is a dizzying, passé, conglomeration labyrinth. I must give them credit that they are trying to do some upgrades and have personnel staffed at convenient corners of the madness to ease the experience of the weary traveler, but the place has a far way to go before it will meet with my approval. To make things even more pretentious, there is discussion of building an annex for the rich, famous, and powerful. I wonder with whose money they plan to build it—surely not Tax Payer USA? The place truly is an embarrassment.

********************** My first language challenge was trying to move through the Ghanjzoug Airport and trying to bend my ear to the Chinese accent when speaking English. I didn’t do too badly considering what I thought what said A06 was actually A106. I was off by 100 gates but relatively close, considering. Fortunately for me, once I got to the gate and saw that it was flying to Ho Chi Minh City I knew something must have gone terribly wrong. Speaking to the gate agent, I was quickly corrected and up and running. I had ten minutes to get there and without delay I was off. I must admit that they do the best they are able. I can only imagine the challenges they must be faced with trying to communicate to travelers where they must go when the country’s first language is Chinese, and world languages besiege this port of entry. Somehow folks get to where they need as sky hosts scamper about from one end of the terminal to the next doing the Chinese shuffle. One thing that I do find annoying is the way that the Chinese eat. In the West, we eat with our mouths closed—small bites, several chews, and then down the hatch. The Chinese eat with their mouths open, slurping it down loud enough that you can hear it across the room. Add one mouth times 300+ in one place, it is orchestral madness, increase that by over 1 billion inhabitants and it’s humorous, Comedy Central. I wonder what they must think about how Westerners eat. To make things more entertaining (and me being as patient and tolerant as possible) I sit next to a very large Chinese man and his wife. I have the window seat, he is in the middle, and she is at the aisle. We politely nod and smile, neither of us able to speak to one another. The plane leaves at 8 p.m. and arrives to Sydney the next day at 9 a.m. Now things would be fine if the husband didn’t have the worse breathe in the province. He must have oral rot. It waifs in my direction each time he leans in my direction, smiles, nods, and puts another fork full of fish rice in his mouth. At first I thought it might be the food, but no, I was eating the same thing and it didn’t stink. I leaned closer to him and confirmed my suspicions—it was him. I inched closer to the window and buried my head into my plane pillow. I didn’t want to hurl and hoped that the sleep would take me and I could concentrate on my dreams versus his pie hole stench. It was going to be a long plane ride.

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4 airplanes, 3 buses, 2 taxis, 1 shuttle and arrival to Australia. I started the journey on December 10 with departure on the 11th and arrival to the Nimbin area early evening on Sunday, December 13. A few lessons I learned:

  • In Australia when making a long distance call you have to dial 02 then the phone number; this is different than then USA when you have to just dial 1 and then area code, prefix and suffix.

  • Being nice and pleading as an international traveler, Aussies go above and beyond to help.

  • In Queensland and New South Wales at the Twead Heads Centro bus stop the bus schedule is off by one hour because one block up it switches time zones. You will think you have the right time, but it is not correct. So, if you are waiting for a 1:35 p.m. bus (#605 to Murwillumbah) according to the schedule posted at the stop, it is actually 2:35 p.m. This can truly screw with you because you will think the bus didn’t come. The next one comes at 3:35 p.m. I found this out when I waited and waited thinking the bus forgot me when actually it was right on schedule but a different time zone.

  • Kindness and a great attitude works wonders. When flying on Jetstar after picking up my backpack from the international terminal and over to the domestic airport, I was not there 30 minutes before my domestic departure. By explaining nicely to the front desk agent, she was able to sweep me off to the airplane in ten minutes before my departure to Gold Coast and my backpack made the flight without delay. When others wouldn’t chat with the homeless man at the bus stop and you do, he might be able to help you out. Afraid to not miss my bus, I waited and waited. My mouth was dry which is the first sign of dehydration. He had a bag of melting ice, and I asked if I could have a cube to quench my thirst. Destiny worked in my favor.

AUS $: 4.8 train from international airport to domestic airport 8.2 bus from Tweed Heads to Murwillumbah 1.50 three telephone calls from pay phone 3.20 organic juice from grocery

Words learned: breakfast: brekky cup of coffee: cuppa elevator: lift friend: mate careful when walking: mind your step line: cue flip flops: thong millame: type of rodent While I appreciate the news and getting access to information, the constant barrage of CNN and FOX in my ears at airports and hotel lounges at every twist and turn gives me a headache. I can’t escape it. It is this onslaught to blah, blah, blah, blah, blah on a TV film loop that is deflating, un-empowering, and toxic. What is even more maddening is the hyper madness of Donald Trump as a presidential candidate; it’s indeed disturbing. As a world traveler, I don’t feel safer knowing that the world has a pulse on Trump’s hate speech as others may look at me wearily because of my national origin. Real or perceived, it makes me more aware of my surroundings b/c he is in the world spotlight—this reality, TV fascist. And then throw in Ted Cruz and Ben Carson trying to politically align in their Machiavellian maneuvering makes my stomach ache as I sit bewildered that average (and below average) Americans sit oblivious to the Republican ideology of separation, division and xenophobia. Leaving the USA won’t keep me away from the political forecasting. The globe sits and laughs at the United States in this pre-presidential nightmare. I can only hope that truth will ring true in the 2016 elections. What I also find amusing is that the average American has no idea about other world leaders (even the name of our northern or southern neighbor), while the rest of world knows who is teetering in the spotlight from the good ol’ USA. I wish America was more humble and played nicely in the sandbox versus throwing bombs and names at those who we don’t like—Muslims being this week’s scapegoat.

********************* I forgot how much I dislike LAX Airport. The place is a jumbled mess. With all that Hollywood money and fame you would expect more from an international hub. But no, the place is dizzying, passé conglomeration labyrinth. I must give them credit that they are trying with do some upgrades and have personnel staffed at convenient corners of the madness to try to ease the experience of the weary traveler, but the place has a far way to go before it will met with my approval. To make things even more pretentious there is discussion of building an annex for the rich, famous and powerful. I wonder with whose money they plan to build it—surely not Tax Payer USA. The place truly is an embarrassment.

********************** 4.8 train from international airport to domestic airport 8.2 bus from Tweed Heads to Murwillumbah 1.50 three telephone calls from pay phone 3.20 organic juice from grocery


December 14, 2015 It’s good to be back at Faeryland. The faeries here are good people with big hearts and a collective spirit. I am blessed to have come to know them. I stayed with them in 2013 working with them on the land, planting trees and working in the organic garden, giving workshops, and getting to know one another. My homecoming has been good. There are several former faes I would love to see; however, they are not here because of other commitments. Regardless, there are faces and stewards I do know as well as approximately another 50 that are new to me. This week should be a pleasure as we learn from one another and grow as a community. The morning wakes to the sound of kookaburoos. https://youtu.be/BHVLH03zYLw The forest greets the morning. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHVLH03zYLw&feature=youtu.be Historically the tribe has been male. Two years ago there was call to have dialogue about including other fae folk, and that conversation has come to fruition. This year there are trans and cisgender women here. At first it felt odd when I arrived as it was different from what I knew, but I have eased into the space with them here. It is good. Opening ritual for the goddess temple was special as we explored the goddess within, songs of celebration and stories of pain, healing, and commonality. As fae folk we have been cast out as other by our communities, families, and his/herstories. Sadly, western society has placed the feminine as less than versus the fierceness of what it means to be female.

I am thankful for the feminine within. While in my early development it was challenging to find a place, I am blessed to have women and men in my life that celebrated the 'other' versus casting it out as strange and bizzare. My feminine has made me the man that I am today—beautiful, gentle, caring, and loving with a confidence of self and creating a safe place for all at the banquet table. (And as I recalled to remember also angry--don't mess with the feminie scorned.) Radical Faeries are a loosely affiliated international group of mostly gay men and mostly counterculture pagans. The Faeries began in California, and have spread throughout the world over the past several decades, in tandem with the larger gay rights movement. The group challenges the commercialization and patriarchal gay life while celebrating pagan constructs and rituals and adapting rural living and environmentally sustainable concepts to modern technologies as part of their creative expression. Members embody the fae or, in simplified terms feminized ideals in gay men while, also, being fiercely independent, anti-establishment and community-focused. The group offers a fascinating look into counter-cultural survival within the gay community which is itself a minority. In other words, the group is considered a beloved fringe group of a larger fringe group of society. Radical Faeries vary greatly from region to region and often commune at large gatherings timed with the seasons and solar system — especially the Equinox and Solstice. Started in 1979 by Harry Hay, his long-time partner John Burnside, Don Kilhefner, and Mitch Walker. A central tenet of the group is that there is no single definition of faerie — Faerie is a self-assumed identity. The Faeries were a contributing influence to John Cameron Mitchell’s film Shortbus. The Radical Faerie movement started in the United States among gay men during the 1970s sexual revolution. Radical Faerie communities are generally inspired by aboriginal or native, traditional spiritualities, especially those that incorporate queer sensibilities. The Radical Faeries use heart circle, communal living, consensus decision-making, dance, drag, pagan ritual, drumming, sex, magic, and intimacy to examine what it means to be a whole human who is also a queer person. In the beginning, the movement was open exclusively to gay men, though most communities are now open to all genders and sexual orientations. Radical Faerie communities practice queer-themed spirituality associated with radical politics, paganism or neo-paganism, feminism, gender liberation, and may encompass any and all religions or a lack of them.<input ... ><input ... ><input ... ><input ... > The creation of a Faerie Sanctuary in Australia was a dream, for many years, of those having experienced the bonds created during the initial visits to the USA in 1979/80 and the first gatherings in Australia in the early 80s and also the ongoing relationships within the faerie community. This dream of having a home to share our lives together as faeries has become a reality after lots of hard work, many meetings and much fey magic. As a community we identify with the ideals of the radical faeries- that this piece of the earth is a focus for and provides sanctuary for its residents who are stewards of that land and members of the extended community of radical faeries, their friends and family. Faeries moved onto the property in April 2002, and since then have been busy fixing-up and adding to accommodation, clearing weeds and planting gardens, orchards and rainforest. At times it feels like there is a mountain of things to do, but we are balancing work with enjoying the beauty and magic of it all. Phase, Teacosy, Anand, Griffyn, Spidercutie, and Chameleon live on the property as full-time residents and stewards. Most work part-time in the greater community, and they care for the land as stewards welcoming fae minded people as they come and go from the land. Since the last time I was here new structures have been built and the outside deck extended. The property is 54 hectares (134 acres) of rolling re-growth rainforests and more open land about 20 minutes northwest of Nimbin, Northern N.S.W. There are several walks on the property: one taking you along a terrace to the back paddock, another walk to the south takes you down to Hanging Rock Creek for a dip in its cool waters. Wallabies, goannas, bandicoots, possums and snakes, and a wide variety of small and large birds inhabit the land.


There is a 2-bedroom house with large verandahs with marvellous views to the north & west including the Border Ranges National Park. There is an old cow bales containing Thelmas Drag Boutique and a number of cabins and vans which have been converted to living spaces for the residents and visitors. There is also the old piggery, which is undergoing renovations to become a multipurpose space. We are working on a land use plan for the sanctuary, incorporating rainforest regeneration and permaculture ideals. These plans include more living space for both residents and visitors (some has been built), an expanded kitchen, multi function studio, bathhouse (now built and functioning), large composting toilet (now built and functioning), a sauna and meditation space,…many things. We have a few fruit orchards and several very productive veggie gardens and large combined chook runs/enclosed veggie gardens. Among some of the flora we have been blessed with are several adult avocado trees, macadamias, citrus and mulberry trees and now have an exciting sub-tropical orchard poking up through the cetaria grass. We have propagated enough seedlings to plant a rainforest. Australian words I learned today: bottlo = liquor store pavement = sidewalk car park - parking lot boot = trunk bonnet - hood of a car tradie - tradesman sparky - electrician chippy = carpenter ring = telephone call sticky beak = nosey person -or- a quick look December 14, 2015 It’s good to be back at Faeryland. The faeries here are good people with big hearts and a collective spirit. I am blessed to have come to know them. I stayed with them in 2013 working with them on the land, planting trees and working in the organic garden, giving workshops, and getting to know one another. My homecoming has been good. There are several former faes I would love to see; however, they are not here because other commitments. Regardless, there are faces and stewards I do know as well as approximately another 50 that are new to me. This week should be a pleasure as we learn from one another an grow as a community. The morning wakes to the sound of kookaburoos.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qj4O9RkI4tQ Willoughbys scavening in the early morning.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHVLH03zYLw The forest greets the morning. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xrRlakZ7joA&feature=youtu.be Historically the tribe has been male. Two years ago there was call to have dialogue about including other fae folk, and that conversation has come to fruition. This year there are trans and cisgender women here. At first it felt odd when I arrived as it was different from what I knew, but I have eased into the space with them here. It is good. Opening ritual for the goddess temple was special as we explored the goddess within, songs of celebration and stories of pain, healing, and commonality. As fae folk we have been cast out as other by our communities, families and his/herstories. Sadly western society has placed the feminine as less than versus the fierceness of what it means to be female.

I am thankful for the feminine within. While in my early development it was challenging to find a place, I am blessed to have women and men in my life that celebrated the 'other' versus casting it out as strange and bizzare. My feminine has made me the man that I am today—beautiful, gentle, caring, and loving with a confidence of self and creating a safe place for all at the banquet table. (And as I recalled to remember also angry--don't mess with the feminie scorned.) Radical Faeries are a loosely affiliated international group of mostly gay men and mostly counterculture pagans. The Faeries began in California, and have spread throughout the world over the past several decades, in tandem with the larger gay rights movement. The group challenges the commercialization and patriarchal gay life while celebrating pagan constructs and rituals and adapting rural living and environmentally sustainable concepts to modern technologies as part of their creative expression. Members embody the fae or, in simplified terms feminized ideals in gay men while, also, being fiercely independent, anti-establishment and community-focused. The group offers a fascinating look into counter-cultural survival within the gay community which is itself a minority. In other words, the group is considered a beloved fringe group of a larger fringe group of society. Radical Faeries vary greatly from region to region and often commune at large gatherings timed with the seasons and solar system — especially the Equinox and Solstice. Started in 1979 by Harry Hay, his long-time partner John Burnside, Don Kilhefner, and Mitch Walker. A central tenet of the group is that there is no single definition of faerie — Faerie is a self-assumed identity. The Faeries were a contributing influence to John Cameron Mitchell’s film Shortbus. The Radical Faerie movement started in the United States among gay men during the 1970s sexual revolution. Radical Faerie communities are generally inspired by aboriginal or native, traditional spiritualities, especially those that incorporate queer sensibilities. The Radical Faeries use heart circle, communal living, consensus decision-making, dance, drag, pagan ritual, drumming, sex, magic, and intimacy to examine what it means to be a whole human who is also a queer person. In the beginning, the movement was open exclusively to gay men, though most communities are now open to all genders and sexual orientations. Radical Faerie communities practice queer-themed spirituality associated with radical politics, paganism or neo-paganism, feminism, gender liberation, and may encompass any and all religions or a lack of them.<input ... ><input ... ><input ... ><input ... > The creation of a Faerie Sanctuary in Australia was a dream, for many years, of those having experienced the bonds created during the initial visits to the USA in 1979/80 and the first gatherings in Australia in the early 80s and also the ongoing relationships within the faerie community. This dream of having a home to share our lives together as faeries has become a reality after lots of hard work, many meetings and much fey magic. As a community we identify with the ideals of the radical faeries- that this piece of the earth is a focus for and provides sanctuary for its residents who are stewards of that land and members of the extended community of radical faeries, their friends and family. He Faeries moved onto the property in April 2002, and since then have been busy fixing-up and adding to accommodation, clearing weeds and planting gardens, orchards and rainforest. At times it feels like there is a mountain of things to do, but we are balancing work with enjoying the beauty and magic of it all. Phase, Teacosy, Anand, Griffyn, Spidercutie and Chameleon live on the property as full-time residents and stewards. Most work part-time in the greater community, and they care for the land as stewards welcoming fey minded people as they come and go from the land. Since the last time I was here new structures have been built and the outside deck extended. The property is 54 hectares (134 acres) of rolling re-growth rainforests and more open land about 20 minutes northwest of Nimbin, Northern N.S.W. There are several walks on the property: one taking you along a terrace to the back paddock, another walk to the south takes you down to Hanging Rock Creek for a dip in its cool waters. Wallabies, goannas, bandicoots, possums and snakes, and a wide variety of small and large birds inhabit the land.


There is a 2-bedroom house with large verandahs with marvellous views to the north & west including the Border Ranges National Park. There is an old cow bales containing Thelmas Drag Boutique and a number of cabins and vans which have been converted to living spaces for the residents and visitors. There is also the old piggery, which is undergoing renovations to become a multipurpose space. We are working on a land use plan for the sanctuary, incorporating rainforest regeneration and permaculture ideals. These plans include more living space for both residents and visitors (some has been built), an expanded kitchen, multi function studio, bathhouse (now built and functioning), large composting toilet (now built and functioning), a sauna and meditation space,…many things. We have a few fruit orchards and several very productive veggie gardens and large combined chook runs/enclosed veggie gardens. Among some of the flora we have been blessed with are several adult avocado trees, macadamias, citrus and mulberry trees and now have an exciting sub-tropial orchard poking up through the cetaria grass. We have propagated enough seedlings to plant a rainforest. Australian words I learned today: bottlo = liquor store pavement = sidewalk car park - parking lot boot = trunk bonnet - hood of a car tradie - tradesman sparky - electrician chippy = carpenter ring = telephone call sticky beak = nosey person -or- a quick look Aussie $ - $300 USA = $372.21 AUS


December 15, 2015 The body is my temple. I have found as I age, I am not as agile as I once was. The joys of youth are unbounded. Lost on young ones who have no contemplation of a formidable ending, they leap and jump without hesitation, dancing into the wee hours without fear of falling. Almost a half century has past leaving me wondering what my future may hold. I am blessed with good health, but I know that this cannot last forever. Traveling, I packed 2 packs—a large red one with most of my gear…clothing, 2 pair of shoes, tent, sleeping bag, bed roll, rain gear, etc., and a blue one with tech gear, toiletries, guide books, and an airline blanket (in case I get bumped and need to curl up on a bench or floor). The red one almost weighs the airline max at 50 pounds and the blue one is around 30+ pounds. One strong wind or pebble under foot would leave me like Humpty Dumpty. Fortunate for me no mishap has happened (knock on wood). As I leave the continent of Australia in 7 weeks, I will send back to the USA my camping equipment. This will save me several pounds on my back and square footage within leaving me more room for fabulousness and goodies to bring back home. Last night it rained. It left me wondering if I would return to wetness in my tent. Blessed be, all was well. This is truly a delight because a wet space makes for unpleasantness. This tent I have has been with me around the world and back. It is a pop-up tent from REI. At first I was hesitant to purchase it b/c of the price; I hemmed and hawed and finally swallowed a chill pill and bought it on sale. It was still pricey but not the list price. This was money well spent—just like my Patagonia gear. Waking this morning it continued rain—not a down pour but a constant sprinkle. It shied away the kuckaburros as a wake-up call, but the bellbirds kept singing as well as the whipits. The whipits are particularly interesting as they sound just as they are called. And with a mate, one will begin the call and the other will and it. I have not yet seen one in the canopy, but I k now they are present. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7VyROoLdiQ

A whipit is 10–12 inches in length; it is olive green with a black head and breast. It has a small black crest with a white cheek-patch on its face. It has a paler abdomen with a long dark olive-green tail tipped with white. The iris is brown and bill is black with blackish feet. The male is slightly larger than the female. Juveniles are a duller olive-brown and lack the white cheek stripes and dark throat. The bird is shy, and is heard much more often than seen. Its long drawn out call - a long note, followed by a "whip crack" (which is the source of the common name) - is one of the most distinctive sounds of the eastern Australian bush. The call is usually a duet between the male and female, the male producing the long note and whip crack and female the following notes. Calls are most frequent in the early morning, though do occur through the day with small peaks at noon and sunset. The same is true for the bellbirds. They remind me of what Tinker Bell would sound like if she were here at Faeryland. Little bells of pleasantness abounds. Aussie words I learned: loo = toilet (not bathroom) dunny= toilet clacker= butt hole date = butt hole brown eye = butt hole or if someone moons gobby = blow job gob = spit doodle = penis crack a fat - erection esky = cooler yankee = yank = tank= septic tank aluminium = aluminum petrol = gasoline full stop = period at end of sentence bogan = white trash morning glory - morning hard-on Maccas - McDonalds shopping trolley - shopping cart December 16, 2015 Dragonfly, a Radical Faery, read my tarot at the large marquee on the Moon Meadow. I pulled the Three of Cups, a card of celebration and accomplishment. Three young faeries dance in a circle with their bejeweled chalices upraised in a toast of joy. Their arms reach out to each other, and they connect through their emotions, friendship, and fellowship with one another. The ground beneath radiates in abundance. Each faery has a wreath of laurel representing victory and success. Sweet smelling laurel wreath is also a symbol of protection, peace and purification and is a message that the favor of the Universe is upon us, and that we shall be the victor in this stage of our lives. The bejeweled chalice remind us of the good times in life, the sweet smell of success, and the beauty that surrounds us if only we open up to its presence. This is a powerful card to read as I begin my journey. Success is upon me, and I resonate in it. I look forward in sharing in its bounty. Aussie words I learned: capsicum = bell pepper coriander (fresh leaf) = cilantro


December 17, 2015


I went through the rainforest to find the creek where platypi live. The steep valley walls slowly merged from the top of the land and through new growth forest. The rains made the hillside slippery, and I had to catch myself more than once. Small, biodegradable fabric strips acted as bread crumbs as I meandered in, out and over trees and forest floor greenery. Large staghorns fanned the canopy, and I discovered new palm varieties I had not witnessed before. Silent birds darted through the trees-- glimpsing upward I would catch a wing and then flight. No songs came from them as the day was still full. I am told that orchid hunters pawn the tree-scape trying to locate varieties that are worth a small fortune. I arrive to the creek and all is silent. Raindrops glisten and one by one fall into the water below. I hold my breath and wait, hoping to catch a hint of the Divine’s mighty creation—one small creature of magnificent splendor. And yet the place resonates silence—nothing. I am told that the best time to see them is early in the morning after sunrise, around 7:30 a.m. Not allowing the disappointment to overcome me, I breathe in the mist as the taste of moist earth resonates on my tongue. Tomorrow will be another day.

Looking down at my feet, blood streams from them freely. I have been attacked by a legion of leeches. I can’t stand leeches! Scavenging little buggers have found me. I am there main course.


December 18, 2015

Summer solstice festivities will soon be drawing to a close here at Faeryland. Bacchanal will be celebrated in the Moon Meadow with festivities that will carry into the bewitching hour. It is always a special event with ritual of the new and the passing of the season. I look forward to seeing what the faeries have in store. My workshop, “Celebrating Diverse Communities: Rad 2 Fab”, was well received. I had a good turnout of folks. The tools and resources that Faeryland was able to provide me were helpful, and I appreciate they took the extra effort to pull them together—especially the marshmallows. I was unsure what to expect traveling around the globe, but they worked their fae majic. I mention the marshmallows because those can be a luxury in a rural environment. Minis were unavailable but larger, colored ones were found. The bags are significantly smaller than in the USA, but I worked with the resources I had. I am tickled that my request was satisfied. :) The one thing I noticed about the marshmallows was the texture; it was different than those in the USA. At home our marshmallows have a buoyancy when lightly touched and pop back upward, Aussie ones have a casing that seems to crack and crumble when pierced. At first I wondered if faeries were going to join in the fun. My space was sparse. I figured that most were out playing in the sun, at the dam sunning or at cosmic trance dance space. I quickly reimagined groups and how I was going to work things through. But as all things faery, they are on a different time zone. Slowly they emerged. By the time it was time to teach, I had a full room and enough participants (around 20) with others that came and went from time to time. I was delighted! December 20, 2015 I am alone in the world. I have come to realize more and more how alone I am—not lonely but alone. In the work and volunteer commitments I do, many know who I am because of my leadership and involvement roles; however, I find that so few truly ‘know’ me. I have many, many acquaintances and yet so few friends. Like all things this can be a blessing and curse. I find that I so dearly want to be connected, to have impact, and to be engaged although I do not have intimate connections. I lack intimacy. I do not need many to feel a sense of fulfillment, but I have no one to feel close to in Mankato. My closest friends are my fantastic neighbors that I live with in Mankato. I am so blessed to have them in my life. If it were not for them, I would feel even more isolated. They have become my family. I am blessed. Work colleagues become an extension of those that are familiar yet unfamiliar. I miss my love relationship with Bear. 2016 will make 8 years that I have not been involved with someone. I miss gentle glances, a soft caress and nesting—building something special to call home with another person. I miss cooking for him, hearing his stories, and sharing/exploring his desires. I miss holding hands, tasting his full lips, and brushing up against his hair on his face, ass and chest. I miss family holidays, watching the Palouse evolve into seasons, and snuggling close to keep my extremities warm. I miss him, plain and simple; some might say I am still in love. I have freed myself of place but not in heart. There are men in my life that have meant so much to me. I have learned from them--learning extends from love relationships to intimacy. Not intimacy in a sexual manner but that of philos, brotherly love. I want to cry--not the sound of a weep or a mournful bellow but a gut wrenching pang that echoes into miles. My sadness is immense--not a pattering of emotion or a smouldering amber but a vast enormous longing of what was but will never be. I remain motionless, stuck, unable to move. Not knowing where to begin go or where to go, I sit waiting. What is to come? I have failed--wishing for so much more not knowing how to proceed, begging for forgiveness but unable to forgive mself. And so I remain, an enemy within, shackled and scarred. And no one knows my pain, b/c on these lips remain a whistle on my lips, a dance on my step. But truthfully, beneath the cloak is a frown of desperation, a song of depair, lonliness waltzing into nothingness. My time at Faeryland has been beneficial. I have given back to the community and the community has allowed to grow, cry, and explore. I am thankful for the land and the faeries. Solstice is soon upon us, the breaking from one season to the next. The moon each day passing grows in size-- lighting my path to my tent, casting woodland shadows along the meadow, and radiating so fully in my tent it appears that a light is on. It is good to be in such a special place for this peak. Full Week of Workshops Aussie things learned: He is knitting with one needle –or- he is one sandwich way from a picnic = crazy chemist = pharmacist heaps of fun = loads of fun daft = stupid spesh = special New word I will embrace: Sheeple – people who blindly follow the crowd like sheep and don’t think for themselves Aussie Money Spent: 12.30 - Roast Beef with Veggies at Lismore Worker's Club 19.00 - film at cinema December 22, 2015


I learned that Australia was the first democratically elected socialist government in the world. I am trying to learn more about its history and hope to speak with others more on the subject. With that history and the rise of the conservative movement, it is interesting how the two have been able to co-mingle. While the conservative movement appears to resonate closer to U.S. policy and practices, it appears to put money before people and the environment—often times shortsightedly.


This was particularly evident with my time here with regards to the extraction of gas a.k.a fracking. I saw beginnings of this concern two years ago when I was in the Northern Rivers, and it morphed into something grander.


The aim of the Gas field Free Northern Rivers movement is to protect the biodiversity, water resources, agricultural lands and sustainable industries of the Northern Rivers, and the livelihoods and wellbeing of the people who live here, from the impacts of coal seam gas (CSG) and other forms of unconventional gas mining. Their objective is to have the Northern Rivers region declared a CSG and unconventional gas free zone, and for all current licenses and leases that allow such activities to be revoked.


The government under the umbrella of big business was going to drill tens of thousands of wells in the area to extract. This was going to be done foolishly for profit without any plan in place for the water, people and biodiversity within the region. This would have been detrimental to the community.


The people organized to blockade movement of the corporate interest. While the region was promised jobs (which was greatly needed) it was going to do so to the harmful effects of the region. Corporate life was going to come in, do what they wanted and leave the place crippled. While money may sound alluring, the people were not going to have any of the bullshit marketing ploy. They organized and stood steadfast to the land and community long term interests.


Coal Seam Gas Overview

Coal seam gas mining involves drilling deep into the earth to extract methane held in a coal seam. In order to extract the gas, large volumes of salty water contained in the coal seam need to be brought to the surface. This water is the major waste product from coal seam gas mining. Methods used to extract the gas include hydraulic fracturing or lateral drilling. Both of these methods represent risks to groundwater.


As well as the underground impacts described above, coal seam gas mining has severe surface impacts. It requires large numbers of wells to extract the volumes of gas that are sought – in Queensland in 2010/2011 some 18,600 gas wells were approved. Along with gas wells come roads, pipelines, tracks, compressor stations and water storage ponds – which altogether results in an industry which spreads out across the landscape and carves up rural landscapes into giant industrial zones.


CSG Mining Risks:

There is mounting evidence that CSG mining poses substantial risks. These risks include:

  • Depletion and contamination of underground and surface water systems and supplies

  • Lack of any safe method of disposal of the large quantities of polluted wastewater brought to the surface in the extraction process;

  • Leaking of methane from wells and pipelines and off-gassing of volatile organic compounds from wastewater storages and compressor stations;

  • Human and animal health impacts from air, water and soil pollution;

  • Loss of agricultural land and native vegetation from the large surface footprint of CSG operations; and

  • Risk of seismic activity from fracking and aquifer re-injection.


Over 25% of New South Wales is covered by Petroleum Exploration Licenses (PELs). Both exploration and production projects have been given the green light, despite evidenced risks, insufficient research and growing community concern about this industry. Repeated calls by community groups, environment groups and the farmer’s organizations for a moratorium on the coal seam gas industry to allow for comprehensive scientific investigation and analysis of the threats posed by the industry have been ignored by government.


Concern about these risks from landholders and communities across the Northern Rivers is why we call for the immediate cessation of all unconventional gas mining activities in the Northern Rivers.


What is CSG and how is it mined?

Coal Seam Gas (CSG) is principally methane found in underground coal seams, where it is trapped by natural water pressure. Similar gas may also be found in other geological formations such as shale deposits and tight sandstone rock formations.


CSG, shale gas and tight sands gas are referred to as ‘unconventional gas’ and should not be confused with so-called ‘natural’ or ‘conventional gas’, which is found in more readily accessible rock reservoirs. These types of gas are referred to as ‘unconventional’ because they require specialized techniques such as fracking to extract commercial quantities of gas.


CSG Extraction Well

The extraction of methane from different unconventional sources uses similar extraction techniques. The gas is accessed by drilling vertically into strata until a deposit is reached, at which point horizontal drilling is likely to occur in order to extend the reach of the well. Horizontal drilling may extend kilometers from a well. Drilling involves the injection of a number of chemicals to optimize drilling efficiency. The bore of the well is lined with concrete to prevent leakage of gas and contaminated water into underground systems. Methane, which is physically trapped in the coal structure with water under pressure, is released by reducing the pressure in the seam. This is initially done by pumping out water – known as ‘produced water’.


Shale and tight gas extraction and a significant proportion of  CSG production requires some form of additional ‘stimulation’ to extract gas at a commercially viable rate. Hydraulic fracturing (or fracking) is one common stimulation technique.


However, in most cases, horizontal drilling will also spread from the initial bore hole for several hundred meters, and potentially several kilometers. The hole is thin and fragile in relation to its length. Further, it does not show the many fissures and fractures in the surrounding rock, into which concrete can be lost when the casing is being cemented. These gaps and fractures can make it extremely difficult, and in some cases almost impossible to completely seal the casing.


What is fracking?

Hydraulic fracturing or ‘fracking’ is a stimulation process used in CSG mining. It involves the high-pressure injection of large volumes of water, sand and undisclosed chemicals into the ground to fracture coal. Fracking expands cracks in coal seams, which allows gas to flow much faster and from a wider area. Originally used to tap deep earth oil and gas formations, the use of fracking has been expanded to coal seams, which sit much closer to the surface. This brings contaminated water and geological disruption close to water catchments and aquifers, and the above ground natural and built environment.


Fracking has been directly linked to a considerable number of serious environmental incidents including water contamination, earthquakes and fire. The process is already banned in France and other countries, including parts of the USA.


Chemicals used in fracking

A 2011 submission to the US Congress identifiedover 750 different chemicals and compounds that are known to have been used in fracking. Most are not disclosed by operators and none of have yet undergone CSG hazard testing and clearance. The following is a partial list of additives that are used in fracturing operations, as indicated by the New York State Dept. of Environmental Conservation.


Classes of AdditivesPurposeExamplesAcidFacilitates entry into rock formationshydrochloric acidBiocidesKill bacteria and reduce risk of foulingglutaraldehyde,2,2 Dibromo-3-nitrilopropionamideBreakerFacilitate proppant entryperoxodisulfatesClay stabilizerClay stabilizationsalts, ietetramethylammonium chlorideCorrosion inhibitorWell maintenancemethanolCrosslinkerFacilitate proppant entryFriction reducersImprove surface pressurepotassium hydroxideGelling agentsProppant placementsodiumacrylate,polyacrylamideIron controlWell maintenancecitric acid,thioglycolic acidScale inhibitorPrevention of precipitationammonium chloride,ethylene glycol,polyaccrylateSurfactantReduction in fluid tensionmethanol,isopropanol


There is currently no requirement for CSG companies in Australia to disclose the constituents in their fracking fluids and only 20 are listed ay APPEA as known to be used in Australia.


However, the experience of CSG mining in the USA is that the commercial viability of the CSG industry is dependent on extensive use of stimulation, such as hydraulic fracturing. Indeed, it is estimated that 60-80% of unconventional gas wells 60-80% of unconventianal gas wells drilled in the next decade will require fr


Good news is that the government paid the corporation $25 million to stay away from this region. This was a huge win for the people because it was the people that made their voices heard. Sadly, those elected to represent the people often times bow down to the corporate dollar. This is intolerable.


This same thing has happened in the United States. Fracking has polluted water and the land with the promises of jobs and little to no long term dialogue of the future. Politicians have fallen for the Mighty Dollar God while shitting on everything in its path. Sadly, the sheeple have followed. Our own land has seen the results of earthquakes because of these decisions and water (the precious resource it is) has fallen to little importance v. the Almighty Money God.


Today I pulled the emperor in the tarot…another great card.


Aussie $ spent:

9.00 Tai sticky rice and 3 chicken satay December 23, 2015


Felicia is in the process of dying, passing from this plane to the next. His energy resonates through the land. I remember meeting him two years ago at Faeryland and heard of this prognosis. Since then he has been saying farewell to friends and family across the continent as well as in New Zealand and Britain. It feels like destiny to be here with him as he says good-bye.


Felicia led an amazing life full of adventures. He was formerly a butler, worked in the sex industry, as well as for the former Prime Minister Margaret Thatcher. He is rich in storytelling with lessons learned and far too many experiences to express in a blog. He has lived a full life indeed.


I will miss this faery. He has a seasoned presence on the land here, and I will always feel his energy resonate in the trees and down the path to Thelma’s. He is love personified. At our closing ritual, he was honored by the community. He has two more months to live before the Divine reclaims him. Water was poured and sprinkled from a clear glass vessel. Words of gratitude were expressed as he slowly moved around the circle. Blessed be love and light and the shadows that dance us forward.

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Sooty met me in Nimbin in the café alleyway, while I was eating a white chocolate and raspberry muffin. It was good to see him. I met him two years ago on the land and spent time with him at the erotic temple. The lens he views life from is special and unique—one that so often is misunderstood by the status quo as well as in alternative communities who try to not be strangled by conformity. I like how he critically thinks, asks challenging questions, and pushes the envelope.


He took me on a road trip across Northern Rivers. The views here are spectacular --almost feeling as if you are looking at a painting because it appears too flawless. Driving up twisted, thin roadways on pin cushion curves, the land opens to vistas that are breathtaking and magnificient. Below the landscape ripples into hills and valleys. Macadamia groves and sugarcane dot the landscape. Gum trees stripped naked of their chocolate skin rest stark in the landscape with their mellowed flesh. Branches outstretched to Father Sky tickle the air as they dance in the wind. I breathe in deeply; the air is fresh and clean.


Sooty took me to a place that I will call the Sacred Cow-- b/c we all know that no cows are sacred; it's all up for consumption-- thought, words, and deeds. He lived there for several months and is in the process of leaving. Dan’s Creek passes through the property with a lovely, small waterfall and swimming hole.

Stripping down naked, it was good to feel the sun on my North American, white flesh. I could feel her kiss my skin, soft and gentle. Slowly making my way down the rock surface, I followed Sooty into the cool water. Diving into it, I felt a rush of exhilaration across my body. My dark locks hung tightly to my head, clung to my face and shoulders as I pulled it back out from my forehead and eyes. My nipples erect, I felt alive as I swam across the void. Could this be Shangri-La?


We pulled ourselves up the red colored boulders and dried our bodies in the afternoon sun. My mind raced away into the Australian bush as I listened to the water dance across the rock surfaces below.

Sooty took me by the hand and up the river bed. We tread through the waters. He spoke of another waterfall even grander than the first that rested up the landscape ahead. Was I up for the adventure? ...definitely!

Cocks swinging in the wind, we made our way up the riverbed. Sooty led the way, as I watched his naked body dot the landscape. It was good to share something so beautiful with such a wonderful, yet peculiar, person. I am glad to call him friend.


My feet would get entangled in the rocks below. Intently looking through the sediment and watching it settle across my ghost-like skin, I eased my way through the forest stream. Each step was challenging, playful and fun like climbing a jungle gym on the playground. Pushing myself forward I would occasionally grasp the sweet grass for balance while being mindful not to grab a barbed tree.


One wrongful touch, my flesh was torn away as deep, crimson blood trickled down my finger. Pulling my forefinger to my lips, I lapped it away. It stung intensely.


Birds darted in and out of the landscape, occasionally a large lizard would scamper away, and through it all I hoped I would not have a run-in with a bush snake. In the distance I could hear the pounding of water. What I envisioned was unveiled...perfection. No others were present but us—naked and fabulous as the Creator intended.


Australia words learned:

Chuck a wobbly = bad attitude Crook = sick (as in health) Chuck a darky = freak out, rage Roman shower = vomit (some use this term also in kink play)


December 28, 2015 – January 2, 2016


Teacosy and I left Faeryland early in the morning on the 27th. We drove to Lismore and got there in time for his morning meeting at 8:00. I immediately went with my backpack and camping gear to set up my space by the stables. The guy who was running camping check-in remembered who I was from before as well as my name. I was impressed b/c I definitely didn’t recall his name and still don’t.


In the past I have put my tent up by the Bear Corral, but with the impending inclement weather I figured an additional roof over my head would do me well. Campers already were in full force attempting to get the best spots before the onslaught of Brisbane and Melbourne boys took over. The ground was harder than I had anticipated, and I was fortunate to see Tug and his boyfriend, Shannon, down the path from me. They had a mallet, and I was blessed that they offered to let me borrow it.


I was up and Adam and done in no time. I hurriedly made my way back to Tropical Fruits HQ, checked-in, got my wristband, and set-up shop in Norma’s.


I worked in Norma’s two years ago. It was perfect. I was able to cook food for approximately 100 daily volunteers, serve two tea breaks (one in the a.m. at 10 and the other in the p.m., 3), as well as prep dinner for the late night tech crew.


Stewart was the lead chef on the 27th. I had met him the last time I volunteered here 2 years ago. He is a gardener and resides with the local drag queen, Maude. His boyfriend, Tony, works at a casino and his also a nice guy but not someone who I would have imagined Stewart would be partnered.We put on the barbeque pork and beef sausages as well as a veggie option. I also made a veggie tossed salad with a balsamic vinaigrette. It went off without a hitch which can be tricky with so many food allergies, interests and requirements, not to forgetting mentioning cooking for demanding queens.


After my shift I headed over to see Shirley’s Temple. I was fortunate to have connected with them two years ago because of my connection with Madam Pan at faeryland. I was heralded as an honorary Shirley, which totally made my week at Tropical Fruits in 2012/3.The guys were quick in action attempting to get at least half of the party space done before the rains would set-in. Both canopies were done but the leg poles were absent. Rolling up my sleeves I went into action helping how I could. I also helped pull together their purple crystal chandelier and sewing the last touches of the ribbon it.


And the rains came—torrential and unforgiving. The wind picked-up and the chill in the afternoon air made we wince. The nice thing was some of the Shirley’s had run into town and were so kind to bring me a couple of slices of pizza. They hit the spot.


My tent remained intact and dry. I was a happy camper. I slipped on my Patagonia jacket and made it to the communal kitchen to recharge my camera battery and chill. I saw several faeries; it was good to know someone.

That night when I went to bed, I tossed and turned. Some of the urban gays lack camping etiquette about being quiet after midnight. It was a bit aggravating to hear them talking and laughing as if the world centered around them. And to top it off, Chanel, another faery, snored the whole night. There is a price to pay being dry in the stable tent gallery which I have renamed as Club Kid Central. Tropical Fruits was established in 1988, as the premier GLBTI community group in the Northern Rivers in NSW. They are a not-for-profit, incorporated association that holds regular events for diverse members and guests. They are self-funded, independent and a voluntary organization.

Mission is to:

  • Provide an atmosphere of self-respect, acceptance and friendship, in which members can enjoy fellowship and all the benefits of a social club without any political affiliation;

  • To be a not-for profit, charitable organisation;

  • Support any like association or charity;\

  • Assist in overcoming the isolation of gay, lesbian, bisexual, trans* and intersex (GLBTI) members;

  • Relay appropriate information through a regular newsletter;

  • Hold regular social events;

  • Promote the social development of the GLBTI community in the Northern Rivers Region;

  • Assist members of the Northern Rivers GLBTI community through community disbursements


Committee: The Tropical Fruits Management Committee is made up of nine volunteers who commit their time, hearts, minds and (where necessary) bodies to manage the affairs of the organisation. There are four office-bearing positions (Chairperson, Secretary, Treasurer and Event Co-ordinator) a five ordinary (special) members.  Members are elected annually. Lismore is a town in northeastern New south Wales, Australia and the main population center in the city of Lismore local governmetn area; it is also a regional center in the Northern Rivers region of the State. Lismore has an estimated urban population of 30,000. It is rural with farming throughout the region. The place is lovely with deep green fields, rolling hills, gushing streams and fantastic waterfalls. The community is welcoming and affirming. It is a bit of surprise to see how welcoming the community to LGBT people. I think stereotypically one would think that a rural, farming area would be quite conservative. While that may have been part of the past, it is definitely not the future. Hippies moved and have supported a local economy which has definitely impacted the greater region to top it off, tropical Fruits New Year’s festivities have made a major economic impact on the area bring several million dollars to the region annually. (The town grows about 12% for festivities.) The city of Lismore lies in the Bundjalung people's nation area, an aboriginal tribe. The town was established by settlers in 1856 with Whites moving in as early as 1843. Lismore and surrounding towns were once part of the rainforest referred to as "The Big Scrub", of which less than one percent remains following the European settlement. A section of this rainforest is viewable in the grounds of the Southern Cross University and at Wilsons Nature Reserve on Wyrallah Road. To think about how densely forested the place must have been at one time is quite unimaginable b/c of all the clear cut. It must have been glorious indeed in its past. Southern Cross University is located in Lismore, offering undergraduate and postgraduate degrees in disciplines including business and law, tourism, humanities and social sciences, creative and performing arts, education, environment, marine and forest sciences, engineering, health and human sciences, law and Indigenous studies. The University was established in 1994 and has campuses at Coff Harbour, New South Wales, and Gold Coast, Queensland. The University has students from more than 80 countries around the world. Registration to volunteer for Tropical Fruits opens on September 1 annually. The early bird gets the worm—you can request where you want to work. I volunteered the last time at Norma’s Café and loved it. And so I did the same again this year. The great thing about it is that you get to meet all the volunteers and production team because everyone wants to get fed and have tea breaks. It is also a guarantee that you won’t go hungry, and with my fare skin, helps me to not get sunburned. What Noma’s doesn’t guarantee is not getting cut up hands and fingers. I had my share of pain this past week. Cooking for 100+ volunteers daily can be a bit daunting. Slicing and dicing veggies and fruits, preparing sauces and pasta, using the BBQ, making sandwiches, and wraps, curries, veg and non-veg, etc. Working Norma's keeps you running from the time you open the kitchen door to the time you close in the late afternoon. Worse for wear, I rocked my socks and gave it 110% each day. Sadly though, my fingers and hands took a beating. The very first day, I stabbed my hand between the thumb and forefinger. The knife went in and kept going, I bled like a stuck pig—the river of red was ongoing. I raised my hand above my head to keep the bleeding minimized and immediately went to first aid to clean-up. It was not pretty. The following day I sliced my right thumb when cutting veggies, the third day my other thumb was sliced and took some serious skin with it. The bleeding wouldn’t stop, and I probably should have gotten three stitches. But I persisted forward to keep the meal on schedule and wrapped gauze tape around the wound to create a mini-butterfly stitch. It did the trick but man alive in pulsed in pain. (Each day when I cleaned the wound it reopened. I could feel my heart beat through my thumb.) And finally on day five, I scrapped my knuckles when cleaning carrots and preparing salad with a grater. Poked, sliced, cut—I have seen better days. Just call me Edward Scissor Hands. Day number 3, I had a splitting headache. My tongue was swollen, and I didn’t feel my usually cheery self. I worked throughout not stopping and noticed that my left shoulder ached. It felt like I had a sunburn which I knew was impossible b/c I never had my shirt off. I pushed though the discomfort and the pang in my brain. When I got off from work, I saw some faeries and caught-up with them. I was good to see familiar faces knowing that I was under the weather. After the sun went down, I went to the wash room. I brought my hand to my inflamed shoulder and felt like there was a mole on it. My mind knew exactly what it was….a buried tick! I sought out Teacosy to confirm my hypothesis, and I was correct. H said he had never seen something so huge (think Texas huge). He did his magic and wrestled it out. My head ached. I was told it had to do with the tick toxins that were shot into me when the tick was released from my skin. I put rubbing alcohol on the opening and went to bed. The next day my head still hurt, I popped some ibuprofen and felt better an hour later. Volunteering as many shifts as I did provided me with free camping for the week as well as three party passes (New Years, Pool and Recovery). It saved me roughly $500.

A few things I would do differently next time: · Camp by the Bear Corral—they are quieter · Bump down—requires less working days for the same benefits · Rest more to save energy for all three party events. I was so tired on January 1 that I took a nap and never got up to go to the recovery party. It was good to sleep but would have been fun to have seen my new found friends one last time before leaving on January 2. · Sturdy tent stakes, the ground is hard. The stakes bend too easily. Aussie words learned: Nud = nude tosser = litter bug chook = chicken chook yard = chicken yard swimmers = swimsuit garbo = garbage truck singlet = tank top thongs = flip flops cuppa = cup of tea butt flu = AIDS


January 3, 2016


My father was hospitalized; he had a stroke. Rose noticed that things were not up to par, and she made sure he went to the doctor. He now has partial eye sight, using a walker, and is on several medications. It’s hard to hear the news being half way around the planet Earth.


Some questioned me if I would return home to see him. The answer is no. He had a stroke earlier in 2015, and I asked what his thoughts were as I planned for my trip. My dad and I chatted again before I left on sabbatical, and he encouraged me to follow my heart and to see the world. And with that in mind, I will do just that.


All the same, it’s hard knowing that he is unwell. Seeing someone struggle is never easy. I trust that when the Creator is ready, my father will go peacefully. To be so full of life and yet ailing is never something I wish on anyone. I trust that he will make it through, and I will have the opportunity to see him before he dies. It could be now or next year. Science and medicine has a mysterious way of keeping us alive for far too long.


Tomorrow I am off to Townsville, Australia. A buddy of mine, Luke Paul, lives/works there. He is a medical officer for the Air Force, and he is currently deployed in Kabul, Afghanistan. We met two years when I was in New South Wales at Faeryland and continued to hang out at Tropical Fruits in Lismore. He is a great guy with a big heart, a smile that will sails ships, and someone who goes above and beyond for friends and family.


When I returned to the USA we kept in touch over Facebook. He was most recently living in Brisbane, and he let me know that he had been transferred to the military base in Townsville. I rearranged my trip so that I could see him. Before leaving the USA, he sent me a note to let me know he was being deployed…but no worries I could still stay at his place. He sent me a contact of a close mate of his (cutie patutti) and encouraged us to chat before I flew over.


As the saying goes, “You are the company that you keep”. He too is awesome. I will be flying in late into Brisbane, and he is going out of his way to pick me up and get me to Luke’s. He sent me an email today confirming my travel plans, asked if I needed groceries, and anything he could help me with before my arrival. Wow! Hospitality at its finest. I am one blessed man.


One of my plans when I get there is to find some boxes in the dumpster and send my tent, sleeping bag, and bed roll back to the USA. They take up a significant amount of space in my backpack, and a little more room means more space for shopping when I get to Bangladesh. I have no idea what it would cost send it back home; I trust that it won’t break the bank.  ....$108AUS in the slow post via ship; it will take three months to arrive. January 4, 2016

It rained most of the day on January 3, and I was fortunate to get my clothes washed and off the line before the downpour. It is good to have clean clothes. It separates us from the primates and Neanderthals. It does not take much to put a smile on my face—hot shower, clean clothes, nice home cooked meal, good night’s rest, clean nails and feet, and internet access.

I have not tired of wearing black and grey. It makes for easier living and not having to mind what I am going to pull out of my backpack each day. I knew I could do it because I did a similar challenge with friends in St. Peter at the arts center. This is a very different role from my usual self—full of color and pizzazz. May be it will hit me in month number two or three?

I have noticed that I have gotten sun on my arms and face—more than I would like. This has all been not from direct rays but rather reflection off of surfaces and in the “shade”. While I am not pasty white, I am going to do my best to keep the sun off my skin. The reason is I once was a Sun God, and I damaged my skin. A tan may look pretty to modern eyes, but it truly reflects unhealthy epidermis. Moderation is key. I trust that I can keep this goal over the course of my journey.

Gecko brought me into Byron Bay so I could catch the Greyhound Bus, and he would volunteer the late shift at the Community Center. We were blessed with rock star parking. We took my camping equipment out and found boxes and packing tape to get them prepped for delivery to the USA.

It is a good thing I did send them when I did b/c when I got to the Brisbane Airport, my bag was weighed and it was over 15kg—too much for personal baggage. If I had my camping gear in it, it would have been heaps worse.

My Eddie Bauer backpack (the one I wear in front of me v. the Gregory pack) has been around the world with me several times and was taking a beating. It was pulling apart from the seams--literally. I had looked at Kathmandu in Byron Bay at their winter clearance sale, and I opted to wait. Instead I bought a clearance, mini-cooler bag for my toiletries knowing that once I lost the outer Bauer bag I would need something.

I was ‘that guy’ at the Brisbane Airport packing and repacking to get my bag to 15kg. I stuffed and re-stuffed my bag until it met max standards. I asked the gate agent what would happen if my other bag I was taking didn’t meet quota at the gate and was told I would be charged. I figured it was worth the gamble. I strapped my other items onto the onboard backpack and prayed to the flight gods that all would go through without mishap.

I arrived four hours before my departure, and I would not be able to get into the main terminal until two hours beforehand. I people watched and rested. The time flew quickly, and I was up front and ready at the two hour notice so I could find my way to my gate without any drama. Good thing I did too b/c my flight was delayed by an hour which resulted in a gate change.

The gods were in my favor again when on the corner of my eye I saw a sale for Samsonite backpacks by 30%. I saw an awesome bag with many pockets and sub-pockets. I snatched it up, undid my Eddie Bauer, and stuffed it with my belongs. I took the mini-bag and REI bag out b/c it would not fit so I would get it on the plane with me. I was blessed that the airline Nazis were not weighing onboard baggage, and got swept away without any dilemmas. My goal now is I hope that when I leave Townsville that the main backpack is not weighed so I can get back to Brisbane without me having to chug my ‘too heavy items’ in my arms.

Matthew (a friend of Luke's a.k.a. Madam Pan) was very kind picking me up from the Townsville Airport, especially after it was delayed by an hour and he had to work on Monday. He was prompt and very helpful. He got me into Luke’s apartment, showed me how to make everything work, and got me settled before scurrying off for bed. I know I am going to sleep soundly tonight, if I can only figure out how to make the a/c work…first world problems.

AUS $: 108.00 – shipping camping equipment to the USA (shipping freight, 3 month delivery) 37.00 – lunch for 2—chicken shawarma and baba ganoush 1.00 -chocolate bar from Aldi’s 12.00 –Kathmandu cooler bag on sale (original 30.00AUS) will use for toiletries 29.58 –Greyhound bus from Byron Bay to Brisbane Domestic Airport 112.63USA –flight from Brisbane to Townsville

Aussie words learned: Heaps = tons jumper = sweater or light jacket sunnies = sunglasses January 5 & 6, 2016 - Townsville


It was good to be snuggled in bed sheets and pillows. Luke’s place is comfy with an amazing view of sailboats on one side leading to the ocean and massive green trees filled with parrots on the other. It’s sleek and modern with floor to ceiling windows, wide balcony, and modern appliances. It feels good to be nesting here for the week and re-acclimating after camping for almost a month. 


Rising early as the sun rose and peered through my window, I tried to ignore the day but it kept begging me to play. I never figured how to make the a/c work in the bedroom, but the ceiling fan kept me cool enough. (I even opened up the air return, cleaned and vacuumed the air filter, had the apt. manager come inspect it, and still didn’t seem to get it working properly.) Oh well, first world problems.


This morning I met a woman at the front of the apartment sitting in meditation with her long, blonde hair pulled to the side and braided to keep the heat off her back. Her name was Ann; she is from Europe. I could hear her dialect but couldn’t pinpoint her homeland by my naked ear; and when I asked, it was avoided. She has lived in Australia for over a decade and before that she was living in New Zealand.


She spoke about the amazing turtles down the cove that I must bear witness and cautioned me to not get in the Townsville beach waters as they are cased with jelly fish. Signs warning swimmers line the beach sands, but courageous fools ignore the warnings and people have at times died. There is another spot with a large net to keep the jelly fish away, but I heard others talking in the hallway this morning that just yesterday some jelly fish made their way in mysteriously and two people suffered major injuries--emergency medical trucks had to respond.


Ann sold her hostel business over a year ago when her partner became seriously ill with cancer and they moved into the apt. bldg. where Luke lives. In the end, the cancer did not kill him but rather the swelling of his throat that would not allow him to breathe deeply. Eating became a burden, he lost weight and was unable to be active as he once was—a competitive athlete. The treatment he was getting in AUS was insufficient, and they went to the USA for help. It was there he died a year ago. Ann is still in mourning.


Ann sold her place here in Townville as well as her hostel business and is moving to Brisbane. Today was her last day in town as she shut off her electricity and said her farewells. I trust 2016 will bring her opportunities as she struggles to find joy because of her challenging last 3 years. She radiates positivity, and I am without a doubt that she will rise despite her misfortune.


I spent the day exploring the streets as I walked from one end of the city to the next. The heat is piercing. I can feel it crackling like popcorn. I take Ann’s heeded warning and venture indoors during the peak of the day. I make my organic salad, blog, and watch the day pass from my window while sucking down Australian moscato and topping it off with a slice of rich, dark chocolate cake with chocolate ganache. May be later I will venture out again after food comatose has passed.


Later in the day as evening approaches, I try to take pictures of the rainbow lorikeets in the park trees. They dart about in the canopy and play hide and go seek from passersby. Twisting and preening they bend in odd ways to eat the nectar from the flowering trees. Just as I think I have one in my camera lens, they fly off. It makes for good Yankee comedy.

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Townsville is a city on the northeastern coast of Queensland,Australia. Adjacent to the central section of the Great Brrier Reef,it is in the dry tropics region of Queensland. This is particularly evident when looking into the hills and you get out of the town center. Townsville is Australia's largest urban center north of the Sunshine Coast, with a population close to 180,000. Considered the unofficial capital of north Queenland, Townsville hosts a significant number of governmental, community, and major business administrative offices for the northern half of the state. What is particularly noteworthy is the older part of the town called The Strand with buildings from the late 1800s. The city center has grown considerably since then which has also created a lot of urban sprawl and unattractive cement slab buildings and box stores in the outskirts. Luke definitely lives in one of the most desirable places in Townsville—on a harbor with a view, green space, and close to the evening action.

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James Cook University is a public university and is the second oldest university in Queensland, Australia. JCU is a teaching and research institution. The University's main campuses are located in the tropical cities of Cairns, Singapore and Townsville. The main fields of research include marine sciences, biodiversity, sustainable management of tropical ecosystems, genetics and genomics, tropical health care and tourism.


JCU's Townsville campus is the University’s largest campus and is located on 386 hectares in the suburb of Douglas, near the army base. Around 12,600 students study at JCU Townsville, including over 1,100 international students. Close to the university is the new Townsville Hospital and Tropical North Queensland Institute of TAFE.


The Discovery Rise project was announced in September 2007. The $1 billion project is aimed at redeveloping the University's Townsville campus.Construction is currently under way and the project was estimated to be completed in 2015 but was still being worked on when I visited.


JCU's Douglas Campus in Townsville has seven on-campus residential halls and colleges which can accommodate 1,475 students. Services offered by these facilities vary from self-catered to fully catered, and support to students. They are situated in the tropical gardens of the campus.


The campus is spread out with large open spaces. Several things surprised me.

·       Lack of outdoor public art

·       Way finding signs were peeling and self-adhesive letters were coming off

·       Major grocery store at university entrance on university property

·       Catholic student residences/colleges at public university

·       Student union area needed TLC


AUS $ spent:

approx. 36.00 – groceries (lettuce, tomatoes, avocados, basil, cake slice, dozen eggs, 2 packages of had salami, bananas, bag of apples, organic chocolate, croissants, organic cheese spread)

8.20 –chocolate cake with ganache, litre Schweppes blood orange

25.98 –two bottles of AUS moscato

5.00 –James Cook Student Union 2015 T-shirt

8.00 –bus pass for the day

21.65 -small box and slow rate shipping to the USA (arrive in 3 months) January 7, 2016 - Townsville


The Strand has a view of the Port of Townsville and Magnetic Island, as well as to Cape Cleveland. It has been part of Townsville's history since the city was founded in the mid-19th century. The current foreshore was opened in 1999 after the former space was severely damaged and eroded after heavy rainfall and wind from Tropical Cyclone Sid in January 1998 and other monsoonal storms between 1997 and 1998. It was moderately damaged by Cyclone Tessi in April 2000.


The Townsville City Council, Queensland State and Australian Federal Governments provided an initial joint funding of approximately $35 million. The investment was well worth it. The area is lovely with beaches, rock pool with sloping entrance, two water fenced beach areas to keep jelly fish away, several open beaches, fitness area, eating establishments, picnic spaces with BBQs, playgrounds and water park. I have not seen anything quite like it. The area also has shaded areas with local flora and fauna and man-made shaded areas to get away from the direct sun. 


Thankfully there is a height restriction on the foreshore area of The Strand, limiting development to small rise buildings. This was due to the construction of the 15-story Aquarius Hotel in 1971, which is an eyesore. The area also has received Australian notoriety as one of the cleanest beaches on the continent.


January 9, 2016 Red-tailed black cockatoos swoop down from the trees and scatter across the lawn to eat freshly dropped fruit. Clutching the seed with its claw, she grips it firmly to keep it in place as she tears away the flesh with her beak. She is fierce and powerful!—just like her mother. Her grey and white tongue pokes at the tasty treat inside while giving me the evil-eye as I play paparazzi—click, click, click goes my camera shutter. She watches my every move and I hers.

Her mates join her in the smorgasbord. Red tails flare out as they fly into the canopy. She teases the boys; she knows she is boss. They are too quick for me to get a pic. They taunt me with their calls. I sit awestruck, cross-legged and observant. Locals pass me by as if this scene is “been there, done that”, and I pay them no mind as I gleefully play in the shadows. This Yank is in bliss.

It’s the males that give them their name as they have bright red tail feathers that dance outward when they fly; the female tails are orange/yellow. As juveniles, the boys look like girls until they come of age at around the 4 year mark when they hit puberty. Heads are white speckled and fall toward the wings. There are five subspecies, and they are characterized by the shape of their beaks.

Like many things beautiful, people want to have them as pets. The illegal trade of parrot capture continues to rise. In the 1990s a red-tailed black cockatoo could be purchased for $1750 in AUS and abroad for $6,000 USD. Hand-raised birds can cost between $15,000 - $40,000 US! Hand-raised birds can learn a few words, and often times the males will not breed as they have been imprinted. The red-tailed parrot is the most common of all black parrots in captivity.

Before long they tire of me. They outstretch their wings and pass across the green. I sit mesmerized. The Creator has once again left me in praise of beauty.

Today is my last day in Townsville. My journey starts mid-morning Sunday as I return to Brisbane. I will be there for less than a week with a Monday appointment to Queensland University of Technology, a sister school that Mankato has developed a relationship. There is much to see there and across the city. I look forward to where the road leads and then off to New Zealand.


Aussie Words/Phrases Learned: arvo = afternoon crook = sick dunny = going to the bathroom outdoors bikkie = cookie (short for biscuit) boardies = board shorts that surfers wear brolly = umbrella dog’s breakfast = messy dog’s eye = meat pie ball huggers = Speedo swimsuit Chrissy = Christmas petro head = car fan or collector cracker = something that is great for ex. Cracker of a day fanny – vagina bum bag = fanny pack poo man = plumber sanger = sandwich

Aussie $ spent: 76.96 – bottle of champagne as a thank you gift and bottle of moscato 15.00 –advanced prepaymen for extra weight w/airport baggage


January 10, 2016 - Brisbane


Morning greeted me with a downpour. The Earth was ready to be engulfed with water. She sucked it down parched by the weeks past where there was no mercy in sight. The boats tossed lightly in the harbor. No parrots could be heard from the trees as they were all taking cover.


I cleaned the apartment so that it was spotless, no remnants of me from the last week and took out the garage and recyclables. I got up early and washed clothes, bed sheets, towels and the like. I made the bed for the next guest or for Luke’s return. I folded the clothes and towels and put them back in their respective spaces.


Matthew got me to the Townsville Airport mid-morning for my flight to Brisbane. He was so kind to welcome me and to get me back. While his schedule was packed with work and house guests, it was nice to move about the city without having to put pressure on him or myself. Two hours up and down, and I arrived to Brisbane. The city looks beautiful at 10,000 feet.


The most populated city and capital in Queensland, Brisbane basks in the good life. It is the 3rd most populous city in AUS, and the city beckons you to come play. 2.3 million people live in the metropolis, and the place resonates.


Brisbane is one of the oldest cities in AUS, and the ancestral Turrbal and  Jagera people were the foundation. Originally a penal colony, the original inhabitants fought for the home, as White Europeans stole their land as they did in the United States. The penal colony grew from 200 to 1,000. As time progressed, the late 18th century brought the aboriginal people in conflict with their newly arrived adversaries.


AUS $:

116.50 -balance for YHA Brisbane hostel minus one evening and $5 discount coupon

17.50 – subway train from airport to Roma Street

5.25 – burger, drink, small fries, and caramel sundae


anuary 11, 2016 The day started early, 3:30 a.m. and then stayed in bed until 5:30. I slept better than I had anticipated in the YHA Brisbane, 4 bunk all male space. There was a younger guy there who had graduated from Univ. in Korea in mass communication and journalism and was preparing to return home for 27 months of military service. The other two guys were in their late 20s/early 30s and bumming around. I did not see much of them as they went out last night drinking with only one returning drunk off his ass but at least he was relatively quiet upon returning back when I woke at 3:30. Instead of waiting for the day to get too hot outside, I decided to rise and walk over to Queensland University of Technology (QUT). My appointment was not until 10 a.m., but I figured I walk the botanical gardens before they became too steamy and unbearable. On the way I met this homeless guy named David Hanifin. His buddy was selling coloring books pages that he had colored. I sat and chatted with them for about 30 minutes to pass the time and declined to buy one of the coloring pages. David told me that he wrote poetry. I told him I did too. As the best things in life are free, I recited one of my memorized works and was then off. QUT not only shares the botanical garden parkland but also butts up to parliament. The building houses only one chamber when they voted not to have a second house. The building is not as ornate as I would have anticipated, especially when compared to Melbourne. The building has an interior patio and surround on all sides. Construction began in 1865 as a gift of Queen Victoria (and completed in 1867) and the remainder of the building was supported by the people and took longer to build in completed 22 years later in 1889. (It was the first parliament house in all of AUS to be electrified, and the first state in AUS to require all people to vote in state elections.) In the 1970s an annex was built for $20 million. The Labor party is currently in control of parliament and of the 89 seats only 2 are aboriginal. QUT is a public university with 40,000 students—approx. 35,000 are undergrads and 6,000 are international of which 90 are from the USA. It is in the top 10 in AUS and in the top 3% in the world. It has three campus and focuses on STEM, Education, Medicine, Law and Business. The most impressive of the spaces is STEM that was completed in 2012 at $230 million. The goal is to increase AUS students studying abroad by 15% of total admitted student (6,000 annual). AUS $ spent: 8.28 – groceries (water melon slice, caramel chocolate, 2 danishes) 4.75 – breakfast (drink and bacon omelet) January 12, 2016 South Bank in Brisbane is hopping! Based around the former site of the 1988 World Expo, there is something for everyone—restaurants, waterpark, playground spaces, bike paths and walking trails, etc. The place is well thought out along the river. While there it was ghastly HOT—36 Celsius; I felt like the Wicked Witch of the West—melting, melting. The good thing is I brought with me my Nalgene bottle with shoulder strap. I wear it like a fanny pack or as the Aussie’s say a bum bag. Along South Bank and on the other side of the river, ferries jet back and forth transporting residents and visitors. The City Hopper (I call the red ferry) is FREE! It will get you to most places that you will want to see and do. Rising early is also great b/c the day is not yet nasty hot and you beat the throngs of people. Today I made it to Sydney Street stop, end of the line. I went there because this is where the old wool warehouses that the earlier settlers erected that made Brisbane wealthy. The surrounding neighborhoods had Italian immigrants, and now the real estate is pricey and very nuveau rich. I walked from the New Farm neighborhood to Tenerife. While I was walking I noticed a figure in the distance that looked familiar. I called out her name; it was Ann from Townsville the woman I met on the front door stoop at Luke’s. She was moving into the neighborhood. What a small world—destiny! I wished her well again in her new opportunities, and I was off down the road. I did not stay in Teneriffe as long as I had anticipated. I was expecting more—older buildings and the like. It has developed into a small village with upscale apartments and housing with lovely trees. I decided to venture back and made it over to Powerhouse Brisbane. The building now houses theatre, music, dance, restaurant, bar, etc. Originally it was a power station in the 1920s and decommissioned in the 1970s. The outer shell of the building remains with the interior very industrial feeling with multipurpose spaces. It is very trendy and hip. When I was there they had family time with crafts and books for toddlers and babies. It was a perfect way to get to know neighbors in the area and an opportunity for young families to get out of the house. Renovated in 2000 it is now a welcome addition to a once defunct space. When it was in transition, the space became a place for the homeless to live and for street kids to throw parties and tag with graffiti. What I like about the space is that it has kept some of the grit with the graffiti covered brick –respecting the space but giving it new life. Today, The Powerhouse is a multi-purpose center for the arts, housing the 536-seat Powerhouse Theatre, the 200-seat Visy theatre, Turbine Hall, outdoor plaza, green spaces, rooftop terrace, bar, restaurant and also hosts a weekend farmers' markets. Aussie words and phrases: She’ll be apples = everything will be alright Avos = avocados battler = someone working hard for a living and barely making it cobber = friend bities = insects that bites bingle = motor vehicle accident freckle = anus franger = condum bitzer = mongrel dog/mutt make a blue = make a mistake plonk = cheap wine Big Smoke = big city like Sydney or Melbourne Aussie $ spent: 4.00 – 2 danish and sm. Bag of cookies 5.25 – drink, cheese burger, sundae, and small fry


January 13, 2016

I am amazed by how early I have been getting up since my arrival to Australia one month ago. I usually rise around 3 a.m. and finally get out of bed around 5:30 a.m. When I was in the rainforest, I thought it had to do with my connection to the Earth and the rise and fall of nature awakenings. Now that I have been in cities the last 2 weeks, I think it has to do with the sun that peeks through the shades. Then again, may be the last week has to do with the drunks that have been in the hostel that are my roomies, and 3 a.m. is around the time they get home. My guess it is when the bars and strip clubs begin to shut down. Oh well, the one advantage to rising early is that there is a stillness about the city and the sun has yet to scorch the sidewalk and benches.

Today I took the City Cat fery to University of Queensland. It was not part of my original plans for sabbatical, but I met a student leader who is running for a student office when I was at Tropical Fruits in Lismore, AUS, and he encouraged me to visit. It was well worth the trip.

It has over 50,000 students (37,000 undergrad and 13,000 grad) and is a comprehensive, research institution and is one of the most selective universities in AUS. It ranks in the top 1% of all universities in the world. Early years did not look favorable for a university in Queensland. In the 1860s government wanted to focus on primary education b/c the literacy rate was below 60%. It wasn’t until the early 1900s that the beginnings of a university emerged. The sandstone buildings of the original campus have classical columns with etched images of subjects that are within each building, images of famous people who have taught at the university, and crests of famous universities around the world. The center is a large green space that is currently being renovated b/c of flooding, and they are also in the process of removing the non-native trees and putting in ingenious species. One of the traditions that is held annually is the court race where students run around the entire columns area, a tradition that is also held at Trinity College and University of Cambridge.

Some interesting things about being a student in AUS: pending on your family’s income the government will provide you a stipend to attend university, after one year out of high school you are considered independent of your parents and can claim financial independence for financial aid, if you get financial aid from the government you do not have to pay it back until you hit a certain financial threshold in income and it is then it is slowly deducted automatically from your salary to repay the government AND you don’t have to pay interest on the loan, if you pay your student tuition upfront by a certain date some universities will give you a 25% discount.

This last week has been fun exploring the city. I have made it to several churches: St. John’s Cathedral, St. Andrew’s Uniting Church, Albert Street Uniting Church, All Saints Anglican, and Cathedral of St. Stephen. I have visited historical sites:  Central Station, General Post Office Brisbane City Hall, Treasury Parliament, Botanical Gardens as well as the Gallery of Modern Art and the Queensland Museum of Art. I have learned bits of information like: in the CBD the streets east to west are named after female royalty and north to south are royal men, Queen Victoria chose the name Queensland in 1859, the faces of devils on George Street of which four of the seven are representations of former politicians, etc.

Tomorrow, I will be attending the Queensland Performing Arts Center to see Roald Dahl’s “George’s Medicine”. It has received rave reviews and extended for two weeks. I was blessed to get seats F12 which up close and center. I am delighted! I am so very excited to see it.

Aussie $ spent: 5.60 City Cat ferry to Univ. 5.60 City Cat ferry return to North Quay 8.10 sushi lunch –3 sashimi rolls 10.85 pewter frog/leaf letter opener than I plan to create a pendent necklace


January 14, 2016


Queensland Performing Arts Center (QPAC) in Brisbane is a large multi-stage performance space. It was completed in 1985 after considerable discussion since the 1970s to being built. Annually they host over 1,000 performances on its four stages from opera, ballet and modern dance, children’s productions, comedy, contemporary and classical music, etc. The Lyric is the largest of the venues with a proscenium and house for 2,000; the Concert Hall is the 2nd largest with 1,600 seats. The Playhouse also has a proscenium and seats 850, and lastly, the Cremorne holds 200 to 300 pending on seating arrangements. The Tony Gould Gallery is also here which shows exhibitions of a theatrical nature.


I had morning tickets (Seat F-12) to see George’s Mavelous Medicine, an adaption from Roald Dahl’s book. All the seats were sold with a crowd full of children. It ran for 55 minutes and kept you engaged with laughter, quirky jokes and song selections, and good acting. The staging was well done with movable scenery that the actors used as props and to change scenery. It was a time well spent and glad I came to see the show as well as visit the larger theatre space.


I made it back up the bridge I crossed when I noticed that I missed one of the GOMA spaces. I had visited earlier in the week and was a little disappointed by how small the museum was only to find that there was more down from the State Library. I am glad I visited too b/c it was showing the 8thAsia Pacific Triennial of Contemporary Art. It was fantastic with three floors of thought provoking work--painting, installation, video, mixed media, etc. What I was delighted to see was that it also reflected some of the issues I am exploring with social justice, women/children, sweatshops, etc.


I made my way back to YHA Brisbane to get my wash done and folded, backpack repacked, reading for my trip to New Zealand, and bringing things to closure here in AUS. My time here on the continent has been amazing. I look forward to returning again, maybe in six years? There is still so much more for me to see and do that I have yet to explore and witness.


Aussie $ spent:

15.50 – return ticket or sky train to airport

11.73 – groceries (avocado dip, fresh baked bread, cookies, watermelon, Schweppes 1.25 litre, brie cheese)


Aussie words/phrases:

make a quid = earn a living

ripper = great

shark biscuit = someone new surfing

liquid laugh = vomit/throw-up

not worth a Zack = not worth a darn

I’ll be stuffed = I am surprised

durry = cigarette

icy pole = popsicle

ute = pick-u truck

mystery bag = sausage

January 15, 2016 I left Brisbane, AUS and the YHA hostel at 5 a.m.; I walked to the Roma bus terminal and got on the Skytrain to the international airport. The place was quiet except for two other travelers and a late shift person getting off work. I got there with more time than I had imagined, but a least I didn’t have to wait in a security line and was able to get some shut-eye in the terminal. I was supposed to fly on Air Zealand, but their partner airline with Virgin took me instead. The plane was your typical flight with the one difference being the food was better than average. I had egg frittata with potatoes. The other difference is you have to pay for a Coke; I chose the healthier and free option, bottled water. The other advantage in flying to NZ is that I lose two hours in time and the weather will be considerably cooler compared to 35 Celsius. Security went quickly and was off in less than 30 minutes. The one thing I must admit that NZ and AUS take very seriously is what people bring into the country. There are very strict guidelines on food, seeds, plants, pornography, etc. For ex., if you bring in an apple into NZ and don’t claim it, you will have to pay a $400 fine! There are amazing stories to be had and even a TV show for viewer entertainment to see the lengths people will go through to bring in contraband. The first thing I witnessed was the temperature change compared to Brisbane. I am glad that I kept my Patagonia jacket and didn’t send it along with my camping gear. I am also glad I sent the tent and sleeping bag back to the USA, because I would have had to claim it as a potential “environmental hazard” and have to be tested for any diseases and potential plant material and animals. The other notation was the devastation of the February 2011 earthquake. The city lost 185 lives, historical buildings collapsed, landslides developed and a tsunami formed. The city still is in major recovery. Buildings are left empty, government structures and churches are being rebuilt, shopping storefronts are vacant, etc. I have never visited a place in this much disrepair; it feels almost like a bomb went off. The one blessing is that you can see the city slowly emerging from the rubble. A sign of progress are cranes and road building. The Māori name for Christchurch is Ōtautahi ("the place of Tautahi"). This was originally the name of a specific site by the Avon River near present-day Kilmore Street and the Christchurch Central Fire Station. The site was a seasonal dwelling of Ngāi Tahu chief Te Potiki Tautahi. There is much to learn. I look forward to seeing what kind of mischief I can get into this next 6 weeks. ********************* One thing I have yet to get used to is looking in what direction the cars are coming before I cross the street. I am so accustomed to how I do it in the USA. I find myself looking, looking again and then one last time before I know I am not going to god smacked in the middle of the street when looking rigth when I should have looked left. Old habits are hard die, but this is one that I need to get a grip on. The other thing I still find challenging is trying to bend my ear to the Aussie accent. For ex. They say dick not deck—it’s on my dick! And I am like…what? As I giggle my way to the BBQ grill. The other day I saw a young woman trying to find her way. I asked if I could be of assistance. I thought she said she was looking Bees Camp, a hostel. I scratched my head, and I told her that I had not seen a hostel by that name. I reiterated what she said, Bees Camp. She said yes that was it. I insisted she may have had the name wrong. She said her Smartphone said it was less than a minute away, and then she proceeded to spell the name out. It was not Bees Camp but Base Camp. I knew exactly where she needed to go—down the street to the opposite corner. We had a good laugh. Kiwi words/phrases learned: Boy-racer = guy in a car with very loud music blaring from his speakers hoon = young person with fast car, loud speakers who may have been drinking judder bar = speed bump plod = friendly term for a police officer jandal = flip flops Pukaru = something that is broken cark it = someone who is dead; kick the bucket lemonade = 7Up, the soft drink lorry = truck nandy = grandpa AUS $ spent: 232.11 – Air New Zealand flight from AUS to NZ NZ $ spent: exchanged $346 AUS to NZ with 10.00 fee = $339.85 8.00 – bus ticket from airport to central bus station 430.00 – 10 nights at YHA, Christchurch 15.00 – small combo lock 29.62 – groceries (lettuce, bread rolls, vinaigrette, dozen eggs, 2 packs of cookies, salami, feta cheese, bag of tomatoes January 16, 2016 - Christchurch

Where there is destruction there is creation. This is evident in Christchurch, New Zealand. Each street and corner there are buildings that are crumbling, once magnificent now decaying and soon evolving into rebirth. I feel like I am walking clean streets of a war zone. And with all things ugly there is beauty beneath the skin of torn plaster, collapsing roofs, weather beaten beams and smashed windows. A new city is merging in front of my very eyes. And despite the hardship and urban decay, something more beautiful rises from the ashes. Chain link fences and plastic keeps gawkers and junk hawkers away from the inside as we peer into crevices and memories of what the city once held dear. Art comes from chaos, and Christchurch this rings true. Catastrophe beckons opportunity. On brick walls, street corners and door stoops emerges something special as artists and creative types borrow from the castaways while creating mementos of ponder. It is evident in the art that I see scattered around the city. This is opportunity; this is hope for a better tomorrow. The Christchurch Cathedral (Anglican) is in the heart of the collapse. It has suffered repeated earthquakes since the 1880s to the most major destruction in 2011—wall, floor, windows, etc. It is tragic indeed. As a resting place a “cardboard cathedral” was erected several blocks away and has been in operation since 2013. It was placed on land given by the St. John the Baptist Church with the understanding that they can use the space and will be given the “cardboard cathedral” when the Anglican Church is completed in its former site. The building was created by architect Shigeru Ban—a disaster architect—and it was designed pro bono. It is an A-frame structure that rises 79’ in the air and rests on 86 cardboard tubes, timber and steel with concrete foundation and windows in the A-frame that let in light. Among the controversy of the build was could insurance money be used to build a temporary space as well as what to do with the original building. Lawsuits and chaos developed with a judge siding with the city on the insurance money issue. Let’s just hope that the once former and much celebrated space will be rebuilt to its former glory Aussie words and phrases learned: pike out = to give up when things get tough guts for garters = to be in big trouble ex. I’ll have your guts for garters. rattle your dags = hurry up rubber = eraser hosing down = raining heavily stubby = small bottle of beer Aussie $ spent: 4.25 = chicken, cranberry and brie sandwich


January 17, 2016


Ata Wairere in Maori means reflection glimpsed in a gently moving body of water. Reflection this last month has been inspiring and has given me glimpses of projects and directions I might want to pursue upon my return back to Minnesota. Nothing is constant but change, and it is in change that opportunity rests.